Milestones, Magic, and Major Life Shifts

Robin:
Hello and welcome to another episode of Aphantasia Experiments. I’m excited to have a conversation with you today.

This episode is kind of a special one, because it marks my 50th episode. Technically, there are a couple I’ve taken down because of sound quality issues, but basically—this is 50 episodes. Fifty episodes of showing up, of sharing, of connecting. And along the way, I’ve had so many amazing listeners reach out with your own incredible stories. It’s been such a magical journey. I’ve met so many wonderful people, and I appreciate all of you.

As you might know, I’ve been on TikTok for a while, but as a celebration of hitting this milestone, I decided to start an Instagram account too. Honestly, that feels like more of a home base for me. Instagram is where my generation hangs out, it’s where I like creating content, and it feels easy and natural. TikTok is still great if you want to see me “in person,” but Instagram is where I’ll be sharing more posts, ideas, and fun ways to play with our minds and intuition.

So if you’re listening to this now and you follow me, you’ll officially be one of the OGs. When I eventually have 300 billion followers—okay, maybe not 300 billion—but when there’s a whole community there, I’ll remember the ones who showed up first.

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So what do I want to talk about today? Good question. The truth is, I’ve been going through some major shifts, and I wanted to talk about what it means to recognize those shifts in your own life. To understand that they’re not random—they’re always here to propel you forward, to help you grow.

For the past year, I’ve been working in women abuse prevention. Before that, I worked full-time in another role, and when that contract ended this one extended. At the same time, my Reiki practice has really started to grow. The more unavailable I feel, the more people seem to want my services. My Reiki has blown up a bit, and I’ve been catching up with all of it.

But I’ve realized I only have so much energy. If you’ve ever heard of spoon theory, you’ll know what I mean—only so many spoons in a day. Between my job and my family, I just can’t pour all of my energy into healing work. That’s why I’ve decided to only take Reiki clients on Fridays. That will be my dedicated day. Right now, I’m booking into December, which still blows my mind.

If you’re interested in a Reiki session, please email me at rofocreative@gmail.com
before purchasing through the website—because people sometimes expect sessions within 48 hours, and I want to make sure expectations match the energy I’m able to give.

When I do Reiki, I put so much of myself into it. I start by scanning the body, taking notes, and then I go back through with those notes and record a voice message for the client. Because of my aphantasia, the impressions I receive aren’t visual—they come as feelings, as knowing, as memories that don’t belong to me. And that’s how I know they’re meant for the other person. It’s like a blend of energy healing and intuitive reading. Honestly, I think I receive just as much healing from it as the person I’m working with.

But it takes a lot out of me. I didn’t take clients over the summer because I had a rib injury and my kids were home—two things that meant I just didn’t have the energy reserves I needed. When I show up, I want to show up fully.

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And here’s the real thing: I would love to do this full-time. To make Reiki, consciousness work, and this podcast my entire life’s work. But the reality is—I have a mortgage. And I can’t just quit my job and leap into the unknown, at least not yet.

I know so many of you can relate to this. That tension between the work that pays the bills and the work that feeds your soul. I’ve been there before, and in many ways, I’m there again.

But I also know this is where I’ll end up one day. Whether it’s Reiki full-time, whether it’s the podcast, or whether it’s one of the other big ideas that keep coming to me—like doing more work in after-death care, or creating an “afterlife doula” service. Something that helps people connect with loved ones who have passed. Something that acknowledges we are all part of a larger pool of consciousness, and we can still work together across the veil.

These downloads come to me at 3am, like they do for so many of you. Listeners write to me and say, “I woke up at 3am with a premonition, with an idea, with something I knew I had to follow.” I feel you. I live that too. Sometimes the ideas feel too big to hold alone, so I try to “big magic” them out into the world—to imagine the right people being drawn in to help make them real.

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On top of all this, I’ve been writing a screenplay. I believe in it deeply. It’s inspired by my time delivering remains and working with people in those moments, but it goes beyond that. It dives into consciousness, telepathy, nonverbal communication, the bigger picture of how we connect beyond words and beyond life itself.

I think it’s accessible enough for a Western audience, but still deep and layered. I’ve been writing versions of this story since I was a kid. And I know it could change lives, open people’s minds, and help shift how we see one another.

I’ve also been thinking about how much of our world is built for neurotypical people, even though so many of us are neurodivergent. Movie theaters, for example, can feel overwhelming—loud, bright, cold. What if we made films in a way that was more inclusive, that actually reflected the gifts and experiences of neurodivergent people? What if the process itself was collaborative with people who have sensory sensitivities, so the final product was made for them too?

We think mainstream is just what is. But mainstream is taught. Everything we consume shapes us, and I want to create something that flips that—something that highlights what we’ve been told is “other” as a strength.

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And yes, in case you’re wondering, I’ve had recurring dreams about Matt Damon. Totally platonic—we’re just at a baseball game, hanging out, eating hot dogs. But I can’t help but think maybe we’re supposed to collaborate. So Matt Damon, if you’re listening, reach out. And if anyone knows Matt Damon, pass this along!

It does make me wonder: when we dream of celebrities or people we don’t actually know, are they dreaming of us too? Is it another form of connection that we just don’t talk about enough? I think so. I’ve even noticed with my friends—sometimes our dreams overlap or connect in strange ways. Synchronicities that spill into waking life.

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So yeah. That’s where I’m at. Fifty episodes in, and I’m still learning, still rambling, still sharing. Thank you for being here with me. Thank you for being part of this journey.

And if you want to be one of the OGs, go find me on Instagram at Aphantasia Experiments. My follower count is tiny right now—like zero to three tiny. But I believe it will grow into something beautiful.

And if you happen to be Matt Damon—or if you want to collaborate, or help bring some of these big ideas to life—you can email me at rofocreative@gmail.com
. I’ve got the vision. I just need the people who want to help build it.

Thanks for listening, and here’s to the next fifty.