An Open Letter to Justin Baldoni: Hollywood, Motherhood, and the Power of Vulnerability

Hello, and welcome to another episode of Aphantasia experiments. This episode has legit nothing to do with Aphantasia, but something's been on my mind and I wanted to just talk about it um because I think it's a bigger issue in our society as a whole. And um, you know, things bubble up inside of me and if I don't get it off my chest, it festers so I want to talk on this podcast about something that's happening in Hollywood right now, which is so, so unlike something I would talk about. I do not care about Hollywood I did when I was 13 and I had you know Prince William posters on my wall and I idolized Ben Affleck and Matt Damon and Leonardo Di Caprio and but I've come a long way and I don't idolize anyone really other than I don't really idolize anyone. I think that we're all unique individuals and are worth being here and I don't think anyone deserves idolization over anyone else, if that makes sense. Okay, so I want to talk about Justin Maldoni and Blake lively. and I want to make this more of like an open letter to Justin Baldoni. um I don't know if you're following the case, and if you're not, you might be super bored with this episode, and if you are you might be like why why are you an expert on this? I'm not, but what I'd like to say is I've read all the documents. I don't just read the you know, the New York Times article and decide what I think of stuff. I've gone deep and I've read everything. And so I feel like I have a pretty good understanding of what's happening. Of course, I wasn't behind the scenes. I wasn't there. um, but there's this feeling of understanding from Justin Baldoni's standpoint that I want to talk about, I'm going to go through, um, but I have to let my dog in. So I'm going to pause this. You don't know that I'm pausing it, but I always feel like I have to tell you that so in one second. Okay. So I let my dog in and I don't remember where I was at, but um so throughout this podcast, if you're I'm going to just tell you what we're going to talk about so you're like, if you're here and you're like, I have no desire to talk about Justin Baldon you can leave. But I think that it's it's interesting to just dive deep into like what really goes on behind the scenes and how that is influencing society in general, you know? So in this podcast, we're going to talk about the sanctity of motherhood, um, and society and how society undervalues it. We're talking about the entertainment industries, broken systems and the wealth disparity. We're going to talk about the power of deep connection and how that can often get misunderstood. We're going to talk about the high faith and its relevance to this situation. and we'll talk about how publicists manipulate narratives and control perception. And we're talking about how we need a shift in the kind of media that we consume. and that kind of starts with us. Like we need to change that. um so I don't know again, I don't wanna go too into the details of this case because if you're following it, you probably already know this stuff and I I could talk for hours about like the nitty gritty details. But Blake Lively is, you know, put out a complaint against Justin Baldoni seeing that he sexually harassed her, which he totally didn't. um, but then she's bringing in these other people, Jennyie Slate, is saying that um Jamie Keith, Jamie Heath? Oh my God, I'm gonna get all the names wrong. I should probably have this all in front of me again. I'm not a lawyer or an expert in any of this, but um one of the guys, the complaint was one of the producers, one of the guys from Wayfare, which is Justin Baldoni's company, that Steve Thorwitz. I don't I to say the names they're all I get names all mixed together, but we're just going to blump them to Justin Baldoni's team so again, I'm telling you in advance, I'm getting the names around here, but Justin Baldon's team said to Jenny Slate she didn't like her or apartment that she moved into, but she was going to lose that on $15,000 because of the down payment or whatever. So what of the guys from Wayfarer said here I'll give you the money like you have a toddler like um we need to respect the sanctity of motherhood and blah, blah, blah, and that made her feel uncomfortable. I heard this and I was like holy crap. It made her feel uncomfortable because society does not respect the sanctity of motherhood think about that think about COVID think about it. If we respected motherhood during COVID, do you think that like 80% of mothers would be so burnt out? We had to work while working from home and teaching our kids and doing all the stuff and nobody respected the sanctity of motherhood. There was no respect for the sanctity of motherhood, and you knowoni mothers are going crazy because of it the aftermath, the post traumatic stress of it all? I have gotten therapy. I have gotten help, but I know a lot of people haven't. I know a lot of people are struggling burnt out. The thing is we are also conditioned as mothers to be pupil blazers. We give and give and give until we have nothing left nothing left. This guy was trying to help out. He's trying to be a good person and she felt uncomfortable because she's not used to that and that's sad and now lest men will will put themselves out there and be vulnerable because it makes people feel uncomfortable and that is so sad. It's so sad. Motherhood is sacred. parenting is sacred. Our kids aren't getting enough attention because we don't think it's sacred. Think about it really think about that. I don't know. There really needs to be a need, like there needs to be a shift in how we think about things. There There there was a time where women stayed home and they didn't work in they were housewives and in the media, we were portrayed as these women who, like, had a dress on when our husbands came home and we were high heels and we had dinner ready and and what not, and then, you know, the war happened and women went to work and then there was these big shifts and and now we're at a point where I think we're even past the point of like the girl boss era, the fempreneur or like, you know, girls can do everything. We can work, we can be great moms, we can do all these things and we can. But like at the detriment of what? Like why we don't need to have to do everything and we don't have to want to do everything. And there's going to be to like you it takes a toll on your personal life, it takes a toll in your family life. You can't be everything to everyone all at once because we're only human. And I think that we've gone so far into thinking that we need to accomplish everything that we're burnt out and we're depleted and we're um not respected enough. Think about postpartum care in America. I'm in Canada and it's a little bit better, but postpartum and care in America is like you have a baby and you're back to work in three weeks. You your body has not recovered. Blake lively went back to work and she was giving herself a hard time about not being body ready for her her her body scenes with Justin Baldoni. That was her own insecurities. And that was because she has this mentality of her she needs to be this perfect body, perfect person, even though she's supposed four months postpardum, and that's not natural. It's not healthy for her body. right? Think about it. Just think about like the pressure we put on women in our society, females, mothers, we have to be everything all the time to everyone. It's exhausting and I think that Justin Baldoni and his team see that and they respect it and it to me, it's so refreshing and uh not at all uncomfortable. I welcome that, I encourage that type of behavior, and I hope that if you have a male in your life who's a little softer or a little kinder to not go to your friend and say oh, that weird guy just offered me $15,000 to pay for my down payment because he's a creepo or instead look at it like oh wow, this man cares and wants me to feel comfortable. I don't know. There's there's always two ways of looking at things. You can look at it in a negative or a positive light. So that's another thing I want to talk about too. Like, I think that everyone in this case, there's probably negative and positive qualities to all of them. Justin Baldoni is not a saint. He's not a perfect person. There's things that he's done in the past, there's things that he's probably doing right now. There's thoughts that he has in his mind that are probably impure. He is a person on this world who is living. Nobody is perfect right? We're all nobody's black and white, we're all have gray in us, we're all just living our lives and trying to do the best we can. But the thing with Justin Bonu is he's trying to be a good man. He's trying, you know, to care. He's trying to put his heart out there and lead with his heart. And for people who don't live that way, it is uncomfortable for them because they're not used to being in that space. It's totally a different vibe. It's a different space. um and when you have when you have deep conversations, you can often get emotionally misunderstood. So what I think happened with Justin and Baldoni and Blake is that Justin is an open person who leads from his heart, has deep conversations, has um those bigger conversations, not surface level. So for an example, for me, I've always been someone who goes deep with people. I ask the right questions, I care about the answers. I listen, I look people in my eyes. I'm not looking at my phone checking Instagram when I'm having conversations with people. I deeply like value people's time and energy and I put my energy into that conversation and I believe that this is what happened with Justin Baldoni and that got misconstrued as like like a misunderstood emotional connection or like sexual connection, love connection. I think that perhaps Ryan Reynolds saw a text or heard a text and he goes deep and Ryan Reynolds is pushing Blake Lively to get into her body like Beachbody uh ready his own after four months postpartum for this movie because he wants it to sell. Like he's focused on the stuff, the very materialistic egotistical stuff, and she's married to that so she's used to that kind of you know, connection. And so this guy comes along who is deeper or who is who lives through his heart and when you're around that, you can't help but feel like, oh, wow, this is like magnet magnetism. This is this is deep, this is and it feels, um, it can feel to the other person like a deeper, like a more loving, more romantic, whatever, because they're not used to that, you know. Ryan's not saying to to Blake, oh sweetie, you look beautiful the way you are, your body is perfect and, you know, even if you don't feel comfortable, I don't know, what the right words are, but like, you're perfect the way you are and take the time you need to heal and whatever. Instead he's saying like, no, no, no, we need to push this scene back because your body looks, you still have, you know, chunks here or whatever, like, I have no idea what he's actually saying. I'm sure he's not talking like that. but she says in the like in the text messages that again, I've read all of it. It was like, Ryan and I treat our bodies like, um objects or or work work pieces or whatever. And I get that. Like, I get that in a movie you want to be jacked for your role as whatever, Deadpool, whatever. But when you're in a relationship with someone like that, it can feel very cold, especially when you've just had your fourth baby with them and you're dealing with illness and anxiety. There is no way going back to work after four months in a role that you're supposed to be beautiful There's no way she didn't feel that pressure in that anxiety. The hormones going through you? Like we can't ignore this. That is a real thing. You have raging hormones going through you motions. postpartum anxiety is a true thing. postpartum depression is a true thing. I am not saying that that Blake Lively should be um what's it called? like she's innocent because she had postpartum anxiety. I think that's literally the only argument she can use in court. But I do think that Ryan Reynolds didn't have any empathy, didn't have any compassion, didn't have any like and she saw Justin Baldoni's comments as like maybe romantic or maybe like because he cared and because he leads with his heart, she took it the wrong way. Or Ryan took it the wrong way and because he is so ego, like if you're going to look at someone who's full ego, it's Ryan Reynolds and and when you're like that, you can't understand the person who's living through the heart. You can't understand it. You're on a different spiritual plane. You're on a different playing field. They are not on the same playing field. So Ryan Reynolds is never going to be able to meet Justin Baldoni where he is. He's just not capable of it. He's not capable, and so if he saw a text or heard a conversation overheard a voice note, whatever it was, he's going to take that as like an attack on his um stature, you know, like nobody's going to make me look bad, not this big nosed guy, which, by the way, I think Justin Baldon is very handsome and I like noses in all different shapes and I don't think we should change our noses. I mean, whatever, if you've gotten rhinoplasty, whatever do what makes you feel comfortable, but if you've watched the whole like them slow dancing scene, Blake loudly said that he was really inappropriate. If you watch it, the only thing inappropriate is everything that she does. She she can't she says that you have a big nose. You should get plastic surgery and take an insurance month like what? I want to see people on screen that look like us. I want to see people that that have a chunk on them that have, you know, thinning hair or whatever, like I don't want to see people like lively. I don't want to see that. I don't I yes, she's beautiful. She is stunningly beautiful. She is. but when you know that they're so surface level and will hurt people and whatever, that beauty is diminishes very quickly. And her voice, now that I hear her, I can't I hear such a uh influx in her voice like such a um, an issue with her throat chalkrap. And I was reading through, oh, this is the other thing. I was was reading through. I wasn't going to talk about this. But as someone who gets like intuitive medical stuff in intuition downloads from people when I do like Reiki and body scans and stuff, is really reading her her her stuff and Jess and stuff. And there's a lot of stuff on there during filming she would get sick and she would get stre throat. And and Ryan Reynolds makes the same stupid joke about um I heard you got uh an immune system, but apparently it's inv beta testing. He uses that joke all the time because he thinks he's hilarious, but so she kept getting sick with her throat and Justin Baldoni recommended this like intuitive healer person and and then they thought it was like a weight loss specialist, but it was like this person specialized in probiotics, which can do so many different things. I take probiotics, not for weight loss. There's a lot of different things probiotics that can do and it's helpful for you and there's a lot of different stains that it's like, if you just pick up one at Costco, it might not be the right strain. So having someone who actually is an expert on that is pretty beneficial, so I think Justin Beldon is really just trying to help uh Blake out by getting her a specialist and whatever, but they found out that this person also dealt with weight loss and then they they thought that that or this is again, they're spinning they're spinning the words to to make themselves look better, but they're saying that Justin Valdoni um like was trying to make her lose weight. It's not that at all. It's all Ryan. Come on. But anyway, where was I getting with that? The throat chakra. So I'm reading through this this whole, um, what is it called, a deposition? It's not a deposition. What I don't know. I don't know the legal world. I'm not Ali Mc I'm not Allie McBeal. I wish I was. I love legal shows. objection, your honor. Yes, I can do that um but I don't know the right words so sorry, uh, I don't sue me if I get it wrong. I just I don't know. um I'm reading through it and I'm reading these text messages. Oh, I'm sick again, blah, blah, blah. And as I'm reading it, I'm like, holy crap, of course she's sick again. Her throat shocker is fucked. And this is something that, you know, through the last three years, five years now, I always say three years and I feel like it's more like five with years of 2025. COVID happened in 2020 and this goes back further than that. I don't know why I keep saying three years, but um this goes back, um, as I started like doing Reiki and just learning about energy healing and and uh coming, getting more into my own um, like under understanding myself more and like doing my own healing or whatever, I've healed my own throat chakra and I've I can, it's like I understand how to speak now without being scared and and being authentic and using my my my throat in a more powerful, connected way. But through this healing and through this process of like really healing my own throat chocker, I recognize in people when their throat chock is fucked. K and Blakeively is fucked, and that's why she keeps getting strip throat and that's why, like her voice, you if you listen to her in any sort of interviews, she has um her voice will go, it'll crack a little and it goes up a bit and it's like that's this this you can hear it's like this insecure, this lying, this trying to get a compliment out of someone without asking for it. Like it's a very insecure place and um it's all like her throat chalker is so messed. And that comes from like lying and insecurity and just not being authentic. And uh there's a lot of work that needs to be done to heal that. I don't know if she will necessarily do it. um but I hear it. I see it. I feel it. um yeah. What was I gonna talk about next? I kind of went on Latania there. um I was also thinking like, so Blake Lively um dated pen Badgley back in the day? Who's the guy from that show you? uh, I was going to say, you know that show you with Penn Badley? Like, obviously I'm talking about Pat Madley. Anyways, he is of the Bahi faith, so Justinaldoni and Penn Badgley are both bahi. I don't know if he was high during the filming of gossip girl, which I think is what he was on. I don't I didn't watch these shows. Um, but so if she dated someone of the same faith as Justin Baldoni and they likely have very similar viewpoints on things, they probably have a similar like aura to them. I feel like she might just like feel connected to that because of her, you know, previous relationship. And I think that, honestly, I think I think that Blake probably had a crush on Justin um, and felt emotionally connected to him and then got, I mean, I think that Ryan Reynolds might be a little bit of a narcissist and is controlling and I think that there's a lot of like power dynamics in wanting to be at the top, stay at the top and ah, the thing about being on the top is you can't. You can't ever stay at the top and I think that you know, Will Smith had his tower moment at the the Oscars or Grammy's? I forget what it was, where he slapped Chris Rock. that was a tower moment for for Will and it happened really quickly and right now Blake and Ryan are having a tower moment and they might not even realize they're in it. Like they don't even I don't even fully think they grasp what's happening. Um, but they're having a tower moment, and when you have tower moments, there's this opportunity for rebuild and and learning and growth. And so I always think like, yes, you know, people make mistakes and do bad things. And um I think that Blake and Brian deserve to shell out whatever they need to shell at to Justin Baldoni. and then I think they need to like do some healing and recover and maybe stop talking for a little bit. Maybe start listening. Maybe maybe look into the Baha faith and understand what what Justin's all about instead of judging and um accusing. um there's so much healing and that has to be done. I my prediction is they won't last, but uh I uh I don't know, who knows, who knows, right? But this is what I want to happen because Hollywood's system is so broken, like why does anyone need through $30 million for a movie? Nobody does. Ryan Reynolds does not deserve any more money than the working like why is it why is it so why is the well disparity so ridiculous? is what I'm wondering. Like why how can one person make thirty million for a movie while essential workers struggle to survive? It doesn't make sense. It doesn't make sense. So how we as consumers let us happen, like we watch the Oscars and we're watching these celebrities putting on these fancy dresses that they don't have to pay for and that we like we look at and we think that they're so fancy and we're idolizing them. but if such a system is so broken, it's so it's just wildly just proportionate and it has been for decades, and this whole case is just another example of that imbalance. but I think that this is an opportunity to change things. Like I I don't think Justin Baldoni should back down because I think that he is so right in this and I think that so many people out there that are people pleasers that have like let people with money walk all over them or let people, you know, with more power than them, take advantage of them. I think we're all watching this and being like, oh, I wish you stood up for yourself sooner, but also like this is playing it the way it's supposed to play out because it's supposed to be the media and it's supposed to be like, um a like a world life lesson um in standing up for yourself and and uh not just people pleasing and that being vulnerable and living through your heart is not creepy and weird. um so what I want to happen. Sorry, this is kind of all over the place, but what I want to happen and this is why I wanted this to be an open letter to Justin, which I totally didn't make it at all. But Justin, keep fighting and I want you to keep fighting because your voice matters. There's so many people out there that haven't that don't have their voice heard and we all want we all want justice for you, you know? Um, and I want you to get all that money, okay? And I know that you have money already and whatever, but I know that movies cost a lot of money to make, the equipment, the whatever. You have an opportunity to change the way we consume media and to put out stuff that is more important. People are gonna want to watch the next thing you put out. They are. They're going to want to consume and like let's stop watching the same old shit, the same old Cureo's journey yes, the Colleen Hoover's book was was great and I love that it, you know, touched on domestic violence. I work in intimate partner violence, so I think that it's great. I wish I could have seen Justin's take of the movie instead of Blake's, but I think that Justin, you have an opportunity to do something really, really great and really, really impactful in getting people's voices heard that aren't heard and because people are going to be watching you, this is what you need to do. Justin, listen. I know you're listening. I've connected telepathically with you. My heart is connected to yours. reach out to K Dickens. Look into her project about the tell the theape telepathyapes. These people need to be heard and you have the opportunity to make that happen. We could with one movie because of his his like celebrity now in his like, everyone's eyes on him, with one movie, one documentary about these these um non-verbal kids who are telepathic, um, it literally could change the entire world in how we view people and how we we treat people. It could change everything. So that's my my request to justice is like use some of that money to to powproduce this this a very important project and promote it because it's I I look at it as like the most important thing in the universe right now. And I know maybe it's not to everyone, but like I think of all these people that are trapped in their bodies that have so much in there that could help people, I bet you there's a cure for cancer, a cure for diabetes, a cure for everything stuck in someone's mind that we can't get out because they're we we assume that that people are just lumps that have nothing in them, you know, anyways. um where am I going here? I feel like this podcast is so all over the place. So the role of publicist and media manipulation. If you've been following the case, you can really like, if you're a critical thinker, I believe I'm a critical thinker. I think with lots of multiple different angles, I don't ever see things one way or the other. I can look at things multiple angles and whatnot. but when you start looking at like a case like this and looking at the pint behind the scenes, the text messages that happen, you can really see like the the um the manipulation that's happening through the publicists and the and everything and and all the things that that go on behind the scenes to make people look good. and uh, it's really that is cringy to me. saying that you appreciate the sanctity of motherhood or value the asanctity of motherhood, um, it's not cringy to me, but, you know, that is, it is. It's, you know, why do we idolize people who are just made up and that we need people to like cover up their shit to just look good? I look at this whole case and I think of I look at like, I don't know if you watch the show Empire. um, which, by the way, um, Terrence Howard is a fascinating human being. If you ever listen to a there I think it goes on Joe Rogan, maybe, I don't know, but he he just listened to it and talk. He has some bad press. um um, which he talks about. but uh he's like a I don't know if I want to say an evil genius or just a genius, but uh there's something very interesting about that man's mind. But or is I going? Empire, that whole show was like the music industry, um and how corrupt it was and like all the murders that were happening and all the stuff behind the scenes that you don't know about and same with Nashville, like there's like so much stuff. and I think that that's really the case that there's shit happening that we have no clue about and it's covered up. Like it just came out that a guy someone died on Deadpool two or whatever, and it it came out this week, I think that the producers are at fault. And guess who's the producer is? Budoom, Ryan Reynolds. So what does that mean? He's at fault. I mean, doesn't that mean he should go to jail? I don't I don't know. I don't think that's the case and I think that I haven't read enough about that to really give my say, but a lot of things are covered up and I don't know. Also like Ryan Reynolds? Was married to Elanis Morsette, and then he was like no, you know I've used you enough to get to where I need to be. I'm going to move on to the next hot thing. Scarlet your Hansen, I've upped I've upped a level. now now I've upped a level again to blick life like she just kept like it was all it's power moves Anyways, what else did I want to talk about? Um yeah, Justin, go invest in Kens's project. Um, hire me too. I'll come work for you. I'm a good person, I believe in uh what you're trying to put out there. And, uh, yeah, um we need to break free from this hero's journey that we keep consuming to like we keep watching the same same thing every day. And I think that's on purpose. I think that we watch things so that we kind of stay in our bubble and we stay the way we are and we don't like think outside of the box. And I think we need to start. And just start thinking outside of the box. Think think of things differently, you know. Like, imagine if people knew that, you know, the crow outside on your your back porch is actually hearing your thoughts, you know? Like, that's a random example, but there's so much that we don't know about what's going on in our lives. There's so much like benevolency, there's so much magic happening that we ignore because we are in our bubbles and we just like assume the things are the way they are because you know, we watch things on the media that that's been the same for the forever, you know, the same story. It's the same story over and over again. And uh, I don't know. We need to hear different stories and listen to people who are vulnerable. We need to appreciate people go deep. I don't know. I really think there's an opportunity for change. I I I say this. I'm like, this is nothing to do with advantasia, but what I learned when I found out that I had avantasia in the process of like trying to experiment on myself and just learning better minds and and thigh abilities and consciousness and near death experiences, all of the things, right? There's so many things um that I've learned about, um, that makes me think like, why are we so stuck in our ways? Why aren't other people learning about this? Why aren't other people understanding that there's so much more out there than what we're seeing and it it's because we only see what we consume. We consume the same shit over and over again. I want different media out there. I want, you know, I don't know, like I have a guy, a memberhip and I watch that all the time and it's really interesting, but I also think that like their material is almost cheesy in a way and I've talked about this before. I want oh my God. Like I want Ky Dickens to just be super blundant and um to come up with like stuff that will make a difference in people's lives and uh, yeah. um Once you start seeing the world differently, sorry, one second. Rosie, my dog. She's trying to see dogs do this when they want it you to like, really get a point across they'll start barking like, yes, that's right. You're right, Robin. See, she's cheering me on. Okay, give me a second. Okay, and one last thing I wanted to say and I've talked about this on the podcast before, I think. I worked for a company for a while delivering remains for people and I would go in and I would it was only six months. I and uh I would bring people's loved one's home and it was a beautiful job that I absolutely loved because of the connections I made with people. And what I realized through this job was that these connections are the most important thing, probably is the most valuable thing, but as I was saying before, there's so much like benevolent things happening in so many magical moments that are unfolding before us that we don't recognize because we're all in our head, where most of us are living in our ego and and we're not, we're not seeing things, we're not seeing the synchronicities, we're not seeing these special moments, these magical things. And when I went to these are these visits there was something about my openness. Oh my gosh, my dog's barking. I'm sorry. Can you even hear it? You probably can't. I would always go in and I would before I would go in to meet people, I would my hand in my heart and I always oh my gosh, one second. I'm gonna say sorry again even then we were like, what? I went and let my dog out. Okay. So, oh my gosh, I should not stop mid sentence because I don't know what the f what the heck I was talking about. Um, I went in with this openness. I would put my hand on my heart before, and I would like this might be gross people, but I would get like I would go to the cremation place and pick up the remains and then I would transfer the remains off into an earn, and while I would do this, I would it was sacred to me. I would like connect to the remains and like like it was an energetic thing for me. I was very like it was very it was a respectful thing like I really cared and it wasn't just like I was moving dust, you know. So I would always have this like super deep connection and I I put a lot of importance into stuff into this job. I really did. Didn't make a lot of money there, but man, I really put everything into that. And um you know, every night I I would go through the deliveries I had and I would do a little prayer for the people and, you know, I always learned something new about them so I talk about that and whatever. Anyway, so it was this whole, this job was so meaningful and impactful and when I would go in, I would go in with this open heart in this vulnerable heart, and I wouldn't share anything about myself, but I think the aura that I would like the essence of me, people would open up to me and share their deepest darkest secrets, their most vul vulnerable moments, but they would share also these magical things that were happening to them, like in the moments and hours and and days after the death of their loved one, you know, the things that would happen and when I would go there, I would sit and I'd listen with these bright eyes and I would you know, be on the edge of my seat and I would take it all in and I would respond in a way that was as heartled as possible and I was met with such um such beautiful responses. You know, I I was moved in so many magical ways that I honestly feel like every time I left those people, they were different. And I think it was like this. It was like because I was validating their experiences and I was making them like I you are not crazy. I believe that that happened and I've I've, you know, three other people have reported this kind of thing and whatever. So um, where am I going with this? I think the point is, um with these people, there was one woman I met, and I'm not going to tell you her story, but she she had a son who had some issues and she was telling me this story about some some problem in her house that she had and she she showed me it and um it was something that her son had done and and um she said, I've never shown anyone this before. and that happened 30 years ago. and that was not the only time stuff like that happened. Like people shared and maybe it was because I was only going to be with them for five minutes, but I think it was because of this heart opening, this vulnerability. And that vulnerability, there's so much healing in that. And again, I wasn't going in like telling them my life story. It was just like I would I was so open to it and I think they would feel it. and um being able to be vulnerable with me and express themselves and share those like intimate moments was so extremely healing and so what frustrates me about this whole case is that Justin and Jamie and the people at Wayfair are trying to like expose vulnerability and like be more vulnerable and um show men that they can show up in a way that they don't have to hide their emotions and that they can live a heart more heart led life, and it's such a beautiful thing, and instead of like portraying that as a beautiful thing, it has been misconrued, misconstrued as cringy, and I know that the pow there's so much power in healing in vulnerability and it makes me sick to think that um there are people higher up in the media that make millions upon millions of dollars and that control a lot of what we consume um, want to kibbosh that and want to make it seem like someone who cares about the sanctity of motherhood as an evil person in its crinity and that it's weird for men to to care and it's weird for men to, you know, live with their heart, not, you know, be egotistical maniacs. That's not cringey at all. That is so beautiful and welcomed and yeah, I just it's a sad thing and I I, uh, it's been on my mind and I'm glad that I got to come on here and talk about it. I will probably never talk about the skin because it's so in them, but uh I wanted to get it off my chest and uh, yeah, I think I think there's a huge opportunity to change the the landscape of of how we consume things. And and uh I really hope that that massive change will come from this. And uh, yeah, just you decide what you put into your brain, right? Just think about that. And also like, when you're watching something like, you know where we were kids we do like book reports and mean to analyze things after, maybe like analyze I try to do this. When I'm reading a book, I always analyze like, how is this really to my my life right now and it always does in some way, but um analyze how that portrayal of those characters influences how you make decisions in your day-to-day life, you know, like, I don't know. There is this CSI effect where where um there was like an up tick of females in in the criminal science or criminal forensics after CSI came on and there was a female on the show or whatever. There's a whole there's a whole like, there's studies on this and how the effects so I'm so sorry my dog's crazy today. But we're being we're we're like we're being played. We're being played, and we have an opportunity to say no, let's not be played anymore. Let's consume things from original people who have original minds and I'm so sorry. I got to go. Thank you for listening to avidas experiments. It is time for me to check my dog for a walk.