The Power of Purpose: Stories of Manifestation, Meditation, and Meaning

Robin [00:00:00]:
Hello, and welcome to another episode of Aphantasia Experiments. It has been a while since my last episode. I think it was December mind. So now it's February. I can't even believe that. It's wild. Time goes by so fast. I've been really busy.

Robin [00:00:17]:
I started a new job that I love, that I completely manifested. I'm really, really enjoying it so far. It's in Compassionate Care. I'll share more about it at a later date, but, I feel like I was mind made for this role mind it's going to, developed into other things I'm sure too which will help me continue to you know live in my purpose so if you feel like you're not living in your own purpose I get it, I feel you, I understand. It's hard. It's like how do you figure out what your purpose is? How do you figure out who you're supposed to be in this earth. It's it's not an easy thing. I'm currently reading a book called The Power of Meaning.

Robin [00:01:01]:
It's by a woman named Emily something Smith. I forget the middle name, but it's in the title. It's in her it's on the cover. I actually so with my new job, I am driving a lot. And, I have trouble connecting my phone and have the maps going on the same there's like a weird connection Bluetooth issue in my car. So I went to the library. Because I'm doing like really really long drives. And I was like, how can I keep myself entertained? Podcasts, Avi, for a auto audiobook or whatever.

Robin [00:01:38]:
But because my phone the connection's doing something funny, I ended up getting an audio, like a audiobook on tape, but obviously not tape because who has a tape player? I got an audiobook on CD, and it was this Power of Meaning by Emily something Smith. And I'm really enjoying it so far. I'm not finished yet, but I wanted to kinda go through a couple things, because I feel like sometimes I read something mind I'm like, this this tiny little of information is meant to be shared. Right? I mean, I always I have this in my head that, like, when I read something, other people know that information, but that's not the case, like not everyone reads a zillion books you know, so I wanted to share a couple things from this book that really resonated with me. In the book she's talking about meaning. And this has been a big struggle for me for the last like 3 or 4 years. It's just feeling like I didn't I wasn't living in alignment, like, with my own purpose and my own values and my own all of these things. Right? And I've had to make some major changes and shifts and reevaluate my career, my goals, all of those things.

Robin [00:02:49]:
So this book I went to the library mind I'm looking at all these audio books on audiobooks on CD. And there's not a ton but this one it kind of like GLOWED out at me. I know I'm not a visual person and it doesn't actually glow but there's something about my friend has this when she does tarot too. She lays out the cards and she looks at them and like one will mind of almost like pop out. And this is what happened when I was looking at these books. I was looking at them. They're all fiction, nonfiction, whatever. And there's not a lot of selection, but this one was kinda like glowing out at me, you know? So I picked it clearly.

Robin [00:03:30]:
Where was I gonna go? Here's the thing. This might be all over the place, but I recorded a whole podcast yesterday, and I feel like it was really good. But then I listened to it and the audio was so bad. So I'm wearing my husband's headphones. And there's a story to that too, about manifesting. So I'll start there. My husband so okay. First of all, I lost my headphones a while ago.

Robin [00:03:57]:
I've done this several times. I've talked about it. I am a headphone loser. I lose headphones. I don't know why. I don't know why I can't can't keep them. My favorite headphones are these headphones that wrap around my neck so I don't lose them because I kind of wear them as a scarf. Anyways I lost those And, I said to myself, I'm like, I'm not buying myself another pair of headphones.

Robin [00:04:20]:
This is this is madness. You know? So I said okay I want a new pair of headphones mind I have some crappy headphones here that I can use to listen to stuff but for recording something not so much. So I said to myself I need a new pair of headphones. I don't wanna pay for them. You know? Blah blah blah. And then, like, literally 40 minutes later, my friend showed up at my mind, this was around Christmas time, with a pair of red headphones she bought from Marshalls for me because I was we we voice note all the time and I was like, oh, I haven't been able to respond to you because I lost my headphones. So she immediately she she wanted me to be on a voice note so she would have caught me headphones. And they were great for listening but not great for recording.

Robin [00:05:01]:
So I was like, oh, I need to be more specific with my, manifesting. Right? So I just said out loud to the universe, I need some new headphones. Give me some new headphones. You know? And so, I did the whole okay I actually want nice headphones. If I'm gonna manifest headphones, I'm gonna want some, you know, AirPods or something some good headphones. Mind, I don't know. This was like in December mind then my husband this week brought home AirPod Pros for me. And I was like, where'd these come from? He's like, I had it in my room.

Robin [00:05:38]:
Mind, like, he's a teacher. He had it in his room on his desk. Like, someone left in the classroom. He told his his students nobody claimed them. So it was a couple months. Mind he brought them on. He's like, oh, I guess they're yours now. But then I connected it mind it was like it says the person's name on them.

Robin [00:05:54]:
So I'm like, I cannot take this because I know that there's an owner to them, even though I knew there was an owner anyways. But in my heart, in my soul, like, as a good person, I just so I said to him, I'm like, it doesn't have the full name. It just says Liza. Do you know anyone? And then he he was able to track her down. So that's all good. But at the same time, I was like, I've just been given 2 pairs of headphones, and, I need to be more specific. Okay. I need headphones that are not stolen.

Robin [00:06:23]:
That are not not that my husband's stolen, but, you know, like, that are not someone else's. Like, gift me a headphone or, like, win headphones. That would be good. You know? Anyways, for now, my husband works all day, and he has a pair of headphones. So I'm gonna just use him his, and that's fine. Anyways, I was a long story about manifestation. But my point is if you're trying to manifest something into your life, be very specific. Another example of this is last year I really wanted a, or a couple of years ago, I really wanted a, drawing pad.

Robin [00:06:53]:
Like an iPad with Procreate or something. Like something where I could draw. And I was so excited. My mom was like, oh, your my your brother in law's getting you one. Blah blah blah. And I was like, oh, amazing. And so on my birthday, he gave me, and I'm super appreciative of this. He gave me a really big like Wacom ability, but I already have a couple of those.

Robin [00:07:14]:
It's not it's not exactly what I wanted, but in like, I got exactly what I asked for. But I wanted one of the screens that I can actually draw on, you know, for because I do a lot of art mind I was like maybe I should waste less paper, you know, or canvases. Mind, I'm at heart. At heart. Not at heart. My profession for many years was being a graphic designer, right? So, having a tablet would have been nice. Anyway I kind of stopped even wanting that but it was funny. Like within a week I got this pad but it wasn't actually what I wanted.

Robin [00:07:47]:
So being super specific because, the universe doesn't really know unless you add those very, very specific details. Mind then also like, think about how you feel if you got the item or whatever. Sorry. I'm just adjusting my headphones up. That wasn't annoying. I'm not used to these. Okay I wanted to go back to the book that I was reading, The Power of Meaning. So in this book it was talking about how people, people who in their careers feel like they have purpose and meaning.

Robin [00:08:23]:
They went through the different types of careers that people genuinely feel like they have purpose. And this is this is not like a hard and fast rule. Like obviously there's some people who work as teachers that don't feel, like they have meaning or purpose. I I feel like teachers is a bad example because I feel like most teachers probably feel like they have something unless they're terrible teachers. My husband's a teacher. He never comes home and is like, what's my purpose in life? You know? Like, he he knows he's going to school. He's teaching kids. He's making a difference.

Robin [00:08:55]:
He's like, you know and I'm sure a brain surgeon doesn't come home at the end of the day and go, man, I don't feel like I did something good with my life, you know? I I, so anyways, the book talks about the different professions where where you feel like you have purpose and the ones that you don't. And one of the interesting things they talked about was how, certain jobs that do have purpose, that we should value the people doing those jobs don't feel like they have purpose. So for example, like a PSW, someone in a hospital do we have a PSW? What's the job personal PSWs are the ones that help with like moving people around and stuff. So yes, that would be probably one. But like in hospital, the the staff that cleans up, you know, the people that come in and take the sharp containers out, clean the garbages, sanitize everything. Those are really important jobs. They're really important. If we didn't have those, we would be, you know, in a state of we probably all have polio, you know? Like, we need to, like these mind of these kind of jobs are really important, but the problem is the people that are in these roles don't ever, maybe they don't, not don't ever, but often don't even get acknowledged.

Robin [00:10:14]:
And that's a big thing mind I think that's something that we all need to work at. It's not, you know, you don't need to work on getting more people to praise you or whatever. We need to work on, like, acknowledging humans in general. It doesn't matter if you think that their job is less than what you're doing. What they're doing is important, you know. Every world we have in this earth is valuable mind if you walk by someone in the hospital, give them a smile. Give them a nod. Say hello.

Robin [00:10:44]:
Good morning. Good afternoon. Even if they're cleaning cleaning up garbage, you know? One of the things that I've learned through lots of research with near death experience is it's the little moments in life that are more important than the big ones. We often, like, go towards, like, these giant grand gestures, big, you know, career moves, solving the problem to, you know, war or whatever. I we think about, like, our life and our purpose and doing these massive things feeling like, you know, you need to do something big to make a difference, but it's really the little moments. It's the it's the smiling at the person changing your garbage, asking how their day was, showing the people that don't feel like they're worthy that they are worthy. Those little moments are so important. And I just wanted to say that because I feel like we're so disconnected.

Robin [00:11:41]:
There's so many people that are just disconnected. You know? I am such a people watcher. When I go to the hospital, which is not very often, I'm like I'm not one of the people that sits on my phone and texts. I literally sit there and just watch people, which may sound creepy, but, like, I watch people's interactions with the nurses, with with the staff mind literally everyone just has their head down unless they're complaining, unless they're, you know and this is not, again, a hard and fast rule. Like, obviously there's kind people out there. There's people and everyone can be texting very important information to their loved ones. So no judgment. But I do feel like we're all kind of in our own space.

Robin [00:12:22]:
We think about ourselves. We think about our our family, our unit. But everyone else around us, it's like they're characters in a video game that don't matter. Do you know what I mean? Like they're just but the thing is we are all connected. And that's gonna move on to my next point. In this book, they're talking about, meditation. And I'm a big advocate for meditation. I haven't I haven't meditated in a couple days actually, but mind I always feel a little scattered when I don't do it for a while, that meditation.

Robin [00:12:56]:
If you don't fully understand it or you've never fully gotten into it, it just seems like, oh, what are you just doing? You're sitting there in silence? Like, how could that do anything? Well, there's so much more to it. So in this book, they're talking about how when you meditate so they did the scan on your brain, a brain scanner. I'm not sure what method they used, if it was a brain mapping or EEG or whatever. I don't know the science behind it, but, they did this test on people meditating. I think it was the Sufi spiritual something or other. I don't know. They did this whole thing. What they found was the part of your brain that, makes you feel like an individual.

Robin [00:13:42]:
Like, it's like your sense of self, your sense of knowing where you are in this world. So like if you're sitting on the couch cross legged, you know you're there. That part of your brain in that part of knowing that you're you mind, you know, you you're a nurse and you have 3 kids or whatever. Like the part of you that makes you you in your brain turns off. And that sounds like, oh, don't you wanna know who you are? Of course, of course, you live your life day to day. You should know who you are. You should, you know, know who your family is, whatever, know that you're sitting on a couch, whatever. But during meditation, this deep meditation, like you have to get into it.

Robin [00:14:31]:
You can just sit there for 5 minutes and be like, you know, maybe you can to get into it. But, during this deep meditation, that part of your brain turns off. And what happens is you are able to jump in and connect to, like, a universal consciousness. So what happens is that disconnect, that feeling of, like, being your individual self and not being connected to other people goes away. And you're able to this is like astral travel and stuff. You're able to access and feel more connected. It's a beautiful thing. And that's why I highly recommend I mean, I recommend meditation for many reasons, but this is like it's really cruel and fascinating, and I love I love the science behind it.

Robin [00:15:22]:
Like, the the fact that that part of your brain is off. And so when you get it, like, sometimes you'll have stuff come up that's not even about you. Right? Like, it's about your neighbor or whatever, but it's coming through the meditation because you're in that like stream of consciousness where you don't have any individuality. That's pretty cool. Right? I think so. I think it's pretty cool. Sorry. I am I I wrote this whole like, I did this whole podcast yesterday, and I felt like I had so much good stuff to say.

Robin [00:15:51]:
And then I uploaded it and I listened and I was like, oh, no. That's not good. So I'm just I have my transcript. I wanna see if there's anything important that I need to talk about. Oh, storytelling. Okay. So another part of this book. So obviously, I podcast, and I love podcasting.

Robin [00:16:15]:
It's one of my favorite things to do. If someone gave me a bazillion dollars, maybe not even a bazillion, I would just podcast. I think that's what I would do. I'd probably have a couple podcasts, and I would do that because I think that sharing your story and sharing what you learn it's super valuable. You know? I could be reaching someone from Australia right now today, mate. And something I say could get through to someone and make a difference in their life. And I feel like that alone makes me feel like I have meaning and purpose. So in this book, they're talking about how, as I was saying before, certain people feel like they have purpose in their jobs and certain people don't.

Robin [00:17:02]:
And obviously there's genetics and and whatever, a bunch of different things involved in, like, how we mentally feel about ourselves. But, like, typically, people in, like, retail jobs, people people who who work in fast food. All these jobs that are like food food industry jobs, like, important. We need to be we need to eat. We need to do these things. Like, if someone doesn't do it, then it doesn't exist. Like these are important, but they don't feel important. And, and I think that, acknowledging people in life is important.

Robin [00:17:39]:
But back to, sorry. I'm trying to, like, make this make sense. Sorry, guys. So the storytelling. Talking about people and their roles in life. And there was this woman who had started a company. Totally forget what it was called, but a business where people share their stories mind she helps them like write a script mind performing these stories. So they get, like, a 1 man show mind of thing.

Robin [00:18:07]:
They go up there. They tell their story about grief or loss or or something that's happened in their life. Okay? Mind by doing this, they're able to process through some stuff. You know? The thing that people don't realize, my husband, I love him to death, but he will never share his story with anyone. He's a closed book. I know his story because I've lived lived it. But even, like, story of his childhood, he doesn't share anything. And it's if you don't share, it mind holds you back from growing.

Robin [00:18:38]:
Mind, I feel like he's grown a lot since his father passed away, and it's made him, like, process through things. I don't know why I'm saying this, but, this company started this whole thing where you go and you, tell your story, you craft it, whatever. Mind I that really hit home to me. I was like, I've worked in publishing for 15 years, and I feel like part of my job in publishing was, like, getting their stories out there in a book format, mind magazine, whatever. Like, I worked in a magazine before I did, educational publishing, and then I did trade publishing. But a lot of it is like taking someone's story or taking a story making it captivating or whatever. So I feel like that's part of my purpose. The interesting thing they were saying about the storytelling.

Robin [00:19:34]:
So they're talking about how there's 2 different ways of storytelling. I'm sure there's multiple different ways, but when you go through something hard or tragic or traumatic in your life. There's this time period where it's hard to tell your story because you can't actually reflect on the things that happened in a healthy way. So it's like when you tell your story, when your your wounds are wounds and not scars. Like, the time to tell your story is when there's scars, they've healed. There's still the mark. You're always gonna have it. You're always gonna have that scar, but you're able to look back, you know, at the event, at the the thing that happened mind say, okay.

Robin [00:20:19]:
If that didn't happen, then this wouldn't have happened or, like, this good thing came out of it or I learned this lesson, this giant lesson that's gonna change who I am going forward in my life. Right? So, through this storytelling, practice. You're able to, like, reflect and realize, you know, what good came of it or what changes, what mental, you know, breakthroughs you made through this this thing happening. Because, honestly, we can't go through life unscathed. Right? We cannot go through life without losing someone, without hurting ourselves, without losing a job, without all of these things. Right? There's our life is never gonna be picture perfect all the time. There's gonna be moments, but those moments, we're supposed to reflect on them and, like, realize the purpose of them. So then when you're able to do that, and I try to do this, like, on a daily basis.

Robin [00:21:14]:
Like, why did this happen? Blah blah blah. When you do that, your life makes more sense. It starts to like, oh, that in grade 7, this happened to me. And now this is happening to me, and you connect the dots. Like, it's it's a pretty magical, crazy thing. But so they went into in this book, they went into more research about storytelling. And one of the things that I thought was really cool was they were getting people to tell the story as if it didn't happen. So say something bad.

Robin [00:21:47]:
Okay. For example, I had a kid when I was 17. And to a lot of people, that would be, like, traumatic, and it was. Like, it was, a really hard, scary very, very scary point in my life, you know. Nobody I knew had kids. I was 16 when I got pregnant, barely 17 when I had him. Sorry. I'm just fixing that phone.

Robin [00:22:09]:
And, it was scary, you know? Really scary. Mind, my parents were just not okay with it. Like everything at that it felt like World War 17. Like it was just everything was so crazy. There was so much, conflict in my life at that time. And and I think if I, if I go back and I tell the story, if I never got pregnant. I never met his dad. I never you know, all these things.

Robin [00:22:38]:
What would my life look like? And I would not want that. Like, I am so blessed to have Hunter, my son in my life. He is just he's brought so much joy to not only me, but so many people, you know? And through me having a baby at a young age, it taught me resilience, hard work, like, it just completely changed me as a human being. If I hadn't have had him, I might, you know, have been a really heavy drinker. Yeah. Who knows? I might have gotten really into partying or whatever. I don't know. I don't know, but I can tell that story, and there's a huge void missing from my life if I tell it without him there.

Robin [00:23:19]:
Right? Like, I just thinking about it, it's obviously getting me emotional, but, like, the impact he's had on so many people's lives, is wild. But I I give that example, and I don't mean, like, to throw in a baby because you could your traumatic thing could be having an abortion. Right? And your story could still be a positive story if you tell it, you know, in the way where you process it, where you have the baby. Right? It's just about, like, kind of, looking at the whole picture and realizing the outcomes that came because of your decision or because of the trauma or tragedy that you've gone through. Right? And I think it's really important that we tell our story, But I never really thought about telling your story as if it happened a different way. I've never thought about that. Then it really made me think, and I've started to go through different things in my life. And it makes you, like, appreciate the hard things, you know? When you lose someone, so hard mind you carry that grief like a backpack.

Robin [00:24:24]:
You know, you carry it with you, but you learn so much along the way mind it cracks your you open to different things mind, whatnot. So, this is me encouraging you to tell your story. I had the idea to start, like, a podcast where similar to what the woman was talking about, where she got people on stage, helped them craft their stories, and they would tell their stories. And I'm thinking about doing something similar to that, but through podcast format where people can tell their stories of of loss, of grief, of whatever, but be able to like reflect on those on on everything. So if that's if that interests you at all, email me at rofolecreative@gmail.com. I don't I haven't planned it at all, but it's something that that's in the back of my head. I also wanted to make a little announcement that I do have plans with another with a friend of mine who I've met through this podcast. Her name is Sarah.

Robin [00:25:23]:
She's wonderful, and we've developed an incredible bond. And we've kind of, we've been toying around with the idea of doing a podcast for a while, and we're mind of actually getting into the planning stage of it now. It's going to be really cool. I will announce more about it later, but Sarah is a has a PhD in chemistry. She is highly development, and she brings something that I don't to the table. I'm not saying I'm not highly intelligent. I read books like, woah. I read a lot.

Robin [00:25:53]:
I'm like Goodwill Hunting. You know? Like, well, not quite. I don't have a photographic memory. Clearly, I have aphantasia. But I read a ton, but I don't have the education. Right? My education is I went to school for advertising for 3 years at a community college. I excelled there mind I've excelled at my careers and whatever, but I don't have any sort of, like, science background or, you know, master's degree or PhD. And Sarah does, but she also has this, like, spiritual side where she's been opening up to her spiritual gifts mind but she also just, like, gets really into the science and stuff.

Robin [00:26:31]:
We'll have conversations mind I'll say, oh, this happened, and she'll kinda get into the sciency part of it. And and I find it so interesting, and I think that you will too, having that, the two sided conversation, the anecdotal, like the big questions, and we merge science and spirituality. And, yeah, I think it'll be really great. So stay tuned if you wanna get, if you wanna, like, keep in the loop and wanna know when that comes out. On my website, atatatejapexperiments.com, there is like a email sign up. I don't send out emails typically, but I am trying to build my my list. So when I have something like, hey, a new podcast, I can email out. I just need to get organized there.

Robin [00:27:15]:
Haven't done that yet, but wanted to say that. Also, if you have a story that you want to share, I would love to hear from you. You could email me, rofolcreative@gmail.com. You could send me a voice memo. You just send it to me or email it to me. If you, if you have a story that you want to share on a podcast, I can start collecting them. But it's that that the podcast, the storytelling podcast is probably not not gonna be for a while. But the other one with my friend, Sarah, I like it will come soon, and I'm really excited about it.

Robin [00:27:49]:
We have so many cool things we wanna talk about, and I think it'll be really fascinating. She also just to throw that out there, she also has aphantasia, so that'll be something we we discuss and how our brains are similar and different. And we'll talk to other people with Aphantasia and other scientists and other spiritual leaders and whatever. It's gonna be great. So throwing that out there. Also, if you have any cool ideas for names of our new podcast, that would be cool too. Do a poll maybe? I guess I need names to make a poll. But if you have any suggestions for, you know, a podcast where you bridge science and spirituality mind ask big questions and yet to the bottom of the mysteries of the world.

Robin [00:28:35]:
I was thinking something about the aether, but I don't know. If you have any ideas, let me know. What else did I have to talk about today? My friend was telling me a story yesterday. And this is something I didn't didn't talk about in the podcast I did yesterday. So maybe that's why it didn't record well. So my friend, she's also an intuitive, very spiritual. She's one of my one of the people I talk to regularly on a daily basis, and she makes me feel like, I'm heard and seen and whatever. I am very, very blessed.

Robin [00:29:11]:
This is another thing. I am very blessed to have people have meaningful connections with daily. And I'm gonna go back here. Not where I was gonna go with this, but in the book, it talks about connection. And it it had I'm not gonna get the dates wrong, but they did this study in, like, 2004 or something, maybe earlier than that, and they ask people how many meaningful connections and conversations do you have on a weekly basis? And it was, like, 1 to 4 or something. And I was like, what? That is how many meaningful conversations people have in a week? 1 to 4? One to 4. And now I want you to sit there and think about how many meaningful conversations you have in a week. How many how many times do you sit down? And then whenever you've had a meaningful conversation, we explained it in the book.

Robin [00:29:58]:
Then when you sit with someone or, like, you're on the phone with someone, whatever, but you're you're listening to them with your full heart and mind, and they're listening to you and providing feedback. Like, it's a conversation mind you our directly having an interaction with another person, and you're not distracted by other things. You're not, like and you're not just talking about, hey. The Blue Jays lost in this world series yesterday. You know? You're talking about things that matter. Not that that doesn't matter, but, like, heart heartfelt things. You know? Anyway, people don't have those. People don't have those.

Robin [00:30:36]:
One to 4. Come on. That's not enough. That is not enough to feel connected and and good. You know? I'm so blessed to have, like, 1 to 4 conversations an hour. I'm like it's I'm so I listened to that and I was like, oh my gosh. I'm so lucky. I have such great friendships where I feel heard.

Robin [00:30:59]:
And I love listening to my friends. I love hearing from them. I, it brings me so much joy. Anyway, my friend, this was a tangent. I probably just had to say that. So, my friend was telling me yesterday she had what what was she doing? She had a coaching call. So she does like, spiritual, like she's an art therapist, an intuitive whatever. But she, she either had a coaching call or something.

Robin [00:31:33]:
Oh man. What exactly was it? I sound like a bad listener right now, but she was going on and she told me a bunch of different stories about when this happened. And it's been an ongoing thing for me. So, oh, I think she she did a podcast mind she did something else, and she felt really good about it. She felt like she was, like, channeling it. It came out really quickly. Mind I often feel like that when I'm podcasting too, it's like it comes out so easily. It just like free flows out of me, the words.

Robin [00:31:59]:
I'd never know what I'm talking about. It just flows out of me. But then often what happens after, and this is what she was telling me yesterday, was she crashes. So after she did this yesterday And she told me that it happened when she did a coaching call. She felt really good about it. They felt great feedback, and then after, she just, like, laid on the couch and melted into it because she was so exhausted. So you can feel really good mind then like immediately feel bad. And we were talking about this and we're like, what does that mean? And then we were both like Tyler Henry.

Robin [00:32:30]:
So if you've seen, Netflix, the Tyler Henry, oh my god. What's it called? Afterlife? Just Google Tyler Henry on Netflix if you have Netflix. And by Google, I mean just, like, type in Tyler Henry mind Netflix because it's not Google. Clearly, I use Google as a verb. It's a good one. Tyler Henley. He does these readings, and then he'll be, like, dead to the world in his bed, exhausted. And I think it's because he doesn't fully know how to, like, properly protect himself, ground himself, whatever.

Robin [00:33:03]:
But I don't either. I've been trying mind I I tried different things mind sometimes I have, you know, good I was just burping. People say that when you burp, it's like spirit trying to come through. And I don't burp very often. What was I even talking about? I don't know. Oh yeah. Tyler Henry. So if anybody out there is listening to this and you're like, oh, sometimes I get the best advice or like I I feel like I'm channeling or I feel like I'm doing something, and then you crash.

Robin [00:33:39]:
I I think what's happening is spirit is, like, coming through you I'm using you as, like, a tool to get the message across, you know? I often feel like when I podcast, I don't feel like I even have control. Like, it's like, you have to podcast today. And and the Bobby have to work, and then something gets thrown at me, like, you can't work today. You know? There there's a giant snowstorm. You can't be on the road. Okay. Fine. I'll podcast today.

Robin [00:34:09]:
You know? I feel like the universe needs me to do it. But then often, when I do this, I'll pace, and I don't know what I'm talking about, and I'm rambling, rambling, rambling. And then after, I'll just be so tired. And I think what's happening is spirit is, like, communicating through through me, and that takes a lot of energy. Like, I have to raise my vibration. They have to lower their vibration. And, and then after that, it's like just a vibrational clusterfuck. And I don't know how how to solve this problem.

Robin [00:34:41]:
I will, Mind I will communicate it to you. I've recently met a couple people mind this is very interesting cause I, as you know, if you've listened to my podcast, I did a whole thing on grounding and how important it is. And I still think it's really, really important. And, but I live in Canada, in Ontario, and I get cold. And I only been cold, and then I don't go outside, and I don't I'm not grounded. It's a whole thing. And I've been thinking about, okay, how can I stay grounded in the wintertime? And Sarah, who is the one I'm gonna start this podcast with, shared, and I think I've shared this on the thing before about how when she used to do, experiments or science y stuff in the lab or whatever. They would have to, like, go and ground themself in between stuff.

Robin [00:35:29]:
Once we start the podcast, she will explain this better. Sorry, Sarah, if I'm butchering your story. But she they would have to, like, go to the basement and touch a pole or something to ground themselves. So I try to do this at home where I have copper pipe pipes in my basement. I'll go mind I'll hold the the pipe for a couple minutes to ground myself. I I do totally forget to do this often, but, it is a tool to help ground you. So if you're feeling ungrounded, try doing that. But I recently met someone who I really connected with.

Robin [00:35:58]:
Super intuitive. Just like we shared our, you know, crazy, mystical experiences. Been when you meet someone and within a half an hour, you're telling them about the prophetic dreams you've had, you know, they're your people, you know? So, she was definitely my people. And she was telling me how for Christmas she got a grounding that. And I'm I feel like I need to get me one of these. She says it's the best thing ever. I don't fully understand how it works. If you have a routing bag company and you want me to test it, holler at me.

Robin [00:36:30]:
I I I will test your product out. No problem. But the grounding mat is really cool. And then my friend Jen went out with a colleague, and they were like, oh, we just got this grounding mat. It's the most amazing thing. And I'm like, how weird is it that 2 people told us about their grounding mats in a week? So maybe that's something now I need to look into further, a grounding mat. If you struggle with grounding and you have a grounding mat, please let me know what your experience is, what brand you got, what where you got it from. I would love to learn more.

Robin [00:37:00]:
I don't I really don't know a lot about them, but, grounding is something that comes through for me all the time. I feel like often with like the spiritual stuff, I feel like I almost float away from my body sometimes. So the grounding mind of brings my spirit back into myself because I I always wanna be connected to spirit and whatever. But if you're never in your body, then you're not really living on earth. Right? Like, you're not actually learning the lessons you're supposed to if you're you're mind, like, not in your body. I hope that makes sense. So it's important to ground ourselves. It and and get out of your head sometimes too.

Robin [00:37:44]:
Get out of your body sometimes, but, like, day to day. We should ground ourselves. We should be in our body. We should know who we are, you know, and then do your meditation where you get to go off into the stream of consciousness and be someone else for a while. Yeah. And now my mind is completely blank. It's gone. It's out the woods.

Robin [00:38:07]:
Out the woods. Anyways, I think that's all I'm gonna talk about today. I I'm trying to think about everything about aphantasia I wanted to talk about. Aphantasia. I don't know if I talked about, I think I talked about Nikola Tesla and how he gets, like, these flat he got these flashing lights in his head. Oh, yes. No. I had something else to say.

Robin [00:38:30]:
This is something I missed in my podcast yesterday too. The Tesla thing just made me think of it, but it has nothing to do with what I'm about to say. So last week or 2 weeks ago, I got my kids got really sick. My daughter was, like, violently ill. And, and then my other daughter got really sick after her tumbling competition. It is just I was so run down from, like, taking care of the kids, having them, like, cough and barf on my face, you know, those kind of things. Anyways, I got a stye in my eye, and it's the worst eye I've ever had. I've had a couple, like, on the outside of my eye, but this was on the inner part of my eyelid.

Robin [00:39:08]:
And it got really poofy. It looked like I had a black eye. Mind it was so painful not painful. So uncomfortable. Like, pain isn't the right word for it. It was so uncomfortable because the light, any light with, like, making I'd have, like, the you know, night driving. I'm terrible at night driving. Not terrible at night driving, but I hate driving at night cause I get a glare.

Robin [00:39:28]:
I think it's called astigmatism? I might be totally off on that. But I get like this glow unless I wear glasses and I always forget mind. Long story short, this is what I had with the stye. So my eye was so irritated by the light mind I think it's because my tear tear ducts weren't working properly or something was blocked. So the light was so bright mind I, what I was trying to do was just walk around with 1 eye closed. And when you do that, the other eye wants to close mind it's not natural. Like, you just start feeling tired because one eye has closed and then your other eye is overworking and blah blah blah. So I was like, I can't do this.

Robin [00:40:06]:
Like, I I just wanna sleep all the time because my eyes are so tired. So I ended up putting a face mask over 1 eye and keeping the eye open. And we were watching the show, my husband and I, a rift, and I had my mask on. I ended up getting a pirate a pirate eye the next day because I was like, this is ridiculous. Anyways, I was watching the show with him, and I had both eyes open. So instead of, like, winking, which is what I was doing for, like, days, I had 1 both 1 eye open. I could not see anything out of the black eye. So the the eye with the patch.

Robin [00:40:42]:
And the other eye was watching the show. K? And so I know I have a lot of listeners who have aphantasia. Obviously this is an aphantasia podcast. Mind I'm gonna ask this question. When you close your eyes, do you see black or, like, the color of your eyelids? Whatever it is, whatever lighting is needed. Like, sometimes mine are more orange. Sometimes mine are, like, brownie, but basically all I see is my eyelids when I close my eyes. Okay? I put this eye patch on or I had a face mask on, half my I'm watching the show mind I have my eye open.

Robin [00:41:17]:
It's black. So I it's like I have an eyelid on, but I don't. Right? This makes sense. What happened was I started seeing almost like static. Like if you were to look at a TV that the channel wasn't working or whatever. Like, that static because we can do that anymore, is that like before 2000? If you had cable TV and you turn the TV on, it was static. That that is what I got, but, like, dark. Like, black, but with static.

Robin [00:41:44]:
Okay? And I was like, this is interesting. This is not what I should be seeing. I should just be seeing black. It was just after staring at the TV for a while. Right? One of my eyes is capturing the show. One of my eyes is capturing the eye patch. And all of a sudden, these pixels start formulating, and I'm like, what the hell? So it's like static, but then the static starts forming into pictures that are on my left eye. So my left eye it's watching the show, and my right eye is taking these pixels and starting to form faces.

Robin [00:42:20]:
And and, like, it's starting to form the things I see on the left side. I don't understand what is happening, but I feel like that it might be a clue to something. So if you have Fantasia, why watch your TV for a couple hours. Don't do it all the time, but, like, just try with an eye patch on. Tell me what happens. Keep your eye open. Don't keep it closed. So it should look black.

Robin [00:42:46]:
Tell me if anything comes through. It doesn't happen immediately. Like, I did not notice it immediately. I watched a whole hour show, and, like, halfway through. I was like, this is weird. Something's happening here. So just like my experiment with the lights in your eyes and like closing your eyes and describing what you you c. It doesn't happen within 2 minutes.

Robin [00:43:03]:
If you wanna develop your visualization skills, it takes some time and and focus. And so also what was happening once it started happening mind I was, like, realizing it, I'm like, okay. Maybe this is, like, me learning how to visualize. I don't know. Who knows? But I start thinking about it mind then it goes away. And it's like this constant, like, focus, unfocus, focus, unfocus. I don't know how to describe it, but it took so much brain powder powder brain powder. Brain power to mind of stay into that that the mode where my pixels started forming forming.

Robin [00:43:38]:
And then as soon as my brain really realized it, it would go away and I'd have to get back into that state. And there was a weird thing happening with my eyes. So like my eyes were focusing on the TV, and it was like something crazy was happening on my brain when this was going on. And we watched, like, an hour show, and I thought it would make me, like, less tired wearing the Ipads. But I think what was happening was my brain was doing stuff to, like it was like it was trying to tell my other eye what to see. You know? And I don't know. I don't know if it has anything to do with like learning how to visualize or, you know, I don't know. But it was a weird experience.

Robin [00:44:18]:
And I feel like if my eye is completely covered, I shouldn't see anything. So a I'm wondering, has anyone had an experience like this? B, when you close your eyes or when you have something covering your eyes, do you see pure blackness or whatever color the thing is covering your eyes, or you start seeing pixelation, static, whatever? Tell me. I wanna know. I wanna know. I wanna know what happens to other people. And if you do this experiment on yourself, please tell me if you have any sim if you have a similar result or whatever. Let me know. I think that's all for today.

Robin [00:44:54]:
Again, you can email me, rofocreative@gmail.com. You can go to my website. There's a lot of ways to get through to me there. I have on on my website, I have an experiments tab where we can go in and share your mystical stories. I love hearing about near death experiences, out of body experiences. Anything about aphantasia, any sort of insight, if you go there and submit your story, you can submit it anywhere. I will read it, and I will try to get back to you as soon as possible. I love hearing from, my listeners.

Robin [00:45:27]:
And, please share this with anyone you think might might, gain something from this. That is it for for now. Don't forget to tell your story. Listen to other people's stories mind connect and meditate. Thank you so much mind have a wonderful, amazing, fabulous day in probably a month. You know, I probably won't podcast for a while. Maybe it will. Maybe it'll be next week.

Robin [00:45:54]:
I don't know. Have a great day.