Empowering Intuitive Parenting: Understanding and Supporting Psychic Children on Aphantasia Experiments

Robin [00:00:00]:

Hello, and welcome to another episode of Aphantasia Experiments. I am currently batch batch recordings and podcast episodes. So I mentioned in the 1st episode of the the batch that I recorded. Sorry. That, I was feeling low vibe. And honestly, immediately after I did the podcast, I felt so much better that I got it up and whatever, and then I was like, you know what? I have more in me to to talk. So I, did not wanna fold laundry yet. I decided I'll make this laundry folding experience a bit better by podcasting while I do it.

Robin [00:00:43]:

So I did 2 podcasts yesterday, and then today. I just recorded 1, and I was like, you know what? I really need to talk about this intuitive kids stuff in intuitive parenting. This honestly, I feel like I could probably talk about this for a few episodes. So If it gets really long, I might cut it off, but and it's something that I'm sure is ongoing because I was just telling my friend, we both have had these flashes about helping parents with kids, like psychic kids because both of us are in it right now, and we're trying to figure it out. And I was saying to her, we both have had these flashes of us being, some sort of guide for people, who are experiencing this, but the flash for me is after we're not in it. Like, because we're in it right now and we're experiencing it, we are learning how to do things, and we're not doing it perfectly. Clear where we're learning what's right and what's wrong and what's good and what's not. And, I think in the future, we might be able to, like, seriously help people who have children, who have abilities, but I don't think we're there yet.

Robin [00:02:03]:

So I think that we're getting these flashes because I think it's something that will happen eventually. But that being said, I wanted to just kinda go through my experience with kids and, different abilities. And honestly, I feel like it could be because right now what's happening is I have, like, 10 different situations in my head that have or have are coming in so strong. I'm gonna start with what happened this morning to me. And I've mentioned before on this podcast that I when I go to the school in the morning, I so I My son sorry. Throat is so dry. I'm so sorry. If I if I was better, I would do editing and stuff, but I just don't have time.

Robin [00:02:51]:

So I'm sorry for the swallowing sounds and me coughing. So I go to the school in the morning, and and my daughter is in 3rd grade. Okay. So she's 8. I dropped my son goes to the other side because he's in grade 5. He's a junior, and also he doesn't want his mom hanging around. My daughter is still the age where she loves having her mom around. So I dropped my my youngest, she's 5, and the kindy pen, she goes off with her little kindy friends.

Robin [00:03:19]:

And then I spend 10 minutes with my daughter either playing hand games or she just snuggles me and we just stand in line. But what happens when I'm in line is a lot of kids will come up to me and start telling me random stuff. And I've had so many random experiences with these kids and different kids. I talked about it before. 1 girl has the same eyes as I do, and she was in my dream. 1 girl told me she could, she couldn't eat because she could feel Finley's toe because she injured her toe at school. The pain, she was like an empath. And then this morning, what happened and there's more to that.

Robin [00:04:01]:

This girl came up to me with a dime and said that I needed to have it and all this stuff. The experiences that I'm having with these kids, and it's like, I don't know what it is about me. There's other parents in line. I'm not the only parent standing there. So sorry. Trying really hard. It's 11:11 right now. That's so funny.

Robin [00:04:26]:

There are other parents in line, but some reason these kids come up to me and tell me these things. And they're all There's something about the messages that they're getting that I'm like, oh, this is not a normal thing that they communicate to other adults. It's because I'm open and they can see that. I know it with complete certainty that this is like they're coming to me and they're sharing their deepest, darkest secret right now, and it's why. So today, what happened was there was a boy at the end of the line, and I am there every single day. I've never seen this kid in my daughter's class. There's, like, 21 kids in this class. I, like, know everyone.

Robin [00:05:02]:

And this kid is mumbling to himself. He's behind Findlay, and then he looks me in the eye and he goes, I sense anger. I sense anger. And I said, I'm not angry. Are you sensing it for me? I'm I hope you don't sense it for me. I don't feel angry. And I just, like, looked at him in the eyes and he was like, just I don't know. It was like he clicked that I was listening to him, and he was, like, getting panicked.

Robin [00:05:28]:

And he was like, I what did he say? He says, I see them killing them. I see them killing them. They're hurting them, and they won't stop. Why won't they stop? And he was, like, panicked and looking at me, and I was like, Take a breath. What are you seeing? Where are like, what are you he's like, I can sense it. I can sense it, the pain. And I was like, oh my gosh. Take a breath.

Robin [00:05:49]:

This poor kid, he's about to go the bell just rang, and they're the the line is going up, and I'm trying to, like, coach him through this, like, thing that's happening in his mind, and he goes into school. That was my morning. K? And this is not something that doesn't happen regularly to me. Like, it's not even an abnormal thing. You know, so I think that's I don't know. That says something about me, I think, being open, but, it also just shows There's a lot of kids out there that have abilities and things happening, and it's scary. And this kid, what I thought immediately, He's going in, and he said I said I said to him, as he's, like, saying this stuff, I said, have you seen any movies lately? Because kids can often if you've seen a movie about something, it's that's how things can get into your head. Right? So I don't like to credit any kid if they're saying something, but if you've just watched a movie about a fire, you might have fears about fire.

Robin [00:06:55]:

Right? And this is, like, something that I would talk about with my son a lot because he used to have a lot of visions of fire and stuff. And the more you think about, the more you're gonna, like, think about it too. Right? But, yeah, this kid, I didn't get to talk to him. I don't know his whole story. I I just felt like he was connecting to me in that moment for a reason, and I'm fairly certain that the reason I don't know this kid is because he's probably there's 2 or 3 kids in that class that are that have an EA with an educational assistant that they have developmental delays, autism, some I don't know. Whatever else. Behavioral issues, anything that they need, extra assistance with. And I think the students that have the EAs often are out in the playground with the EA till the end.

Robin [00:07:53]:

And I don't know who's who and whatever. This kid was just here today, and it makes me think that he has been labeled. And this is me, like, assuming completely, but I have a pretty good judge of stuff. I assume that this kid as some sort of neurodiversity, like autism something, but he's clearly hearing or seeing or sensing something, you know, and where is that coming from and why he needs help, to understand that more than anything, not just to be labeled as autistic or whatever. And then what what kind of help does he get? And I don't know what the right help is. I I struggle. My son has a lot of behavioral issues, and that was kind of what I wanted to go through on this podcast. There's a lot of ups and downs to having a kid who has high intuition and, who is highly sensitive as well.

Robin [00:09:08]:

It's not just like, oh, they're highly sensitive, so they're sweet and they like playing with teddy bears and that they have really intense dreams, and it's not always that. It's like their emotions are 10 times higher, and so their meltdowns take 10 times longer to come off of, this just like anger is 10 times worse. Right? It's not just sadness. It's all emotions, and it is very challenging, especially when you live in a house with multiple highly sensitive people, including 1 parent who's highly sensitive. So, it's difficult, and I feel like there's some stuff that has really been beneficial for us and some stuff that has really been harmful, and that's kinda what I wanted to talk about on this podcast episode in hopes that if you have a child who is highly sensitive or who has a heightened intuition. If you think that maybe they're psychic a bit or maybe they have some sort of, like, past life trauma or well, I don't know. Maybe your kid you're just like, I don't get my kid. I don't get my kid.

Robin [00:10:25]:

I I don't get them. I feel like this is a podcast for you because I I feel like I get kids, but as a parent who's in it right now, again, this is why I'm like, it's hard for me to teach someone else when I feel like I need a teacher. So I feel like I'm gonna probably be slightly vulnerable this episode talking about my experiences, and I am saying I'm not a expert. I Have had lots of ups and lots of downs, and I appreciate any Any advice if if you're listening to this and you're like, oh, I resonate with that so much. This is something that worked for me. Feel free to email me. I'm not someone who, like, doesn't like advice. I feel like some people don't like getting advice from other people because they feel like they need to figure it out on their all on their own.

Robin [00:11:27]:

And I'm the opposite of that. I'm like, we as a humanity, like, if we all came together and took each other's advice and actually listened to it and understood that advice just means that someone is is thinking about you and loving you. If we took advice in that way, I feel like Wouldn't that be would that make you feel so much better? Anyway, so I like advice. So if you're listening to this and you're like, oh, man, my kid's just like Fletcher. This helped. Please send send your stuff. So back. Let's go back in time.

Robin [00:12:13]:

My son was born a healthy 10 pounds 3 ounces. He was a big boy, and he grew really fast, never lost any weight. He was like turbo. He barfed a lot as a kid. Why am I telling you this? I don't know. But back when he was little, the song by One Direction used to play, It was story of my life. And so it happened all the time where you would barf on me, and I'd be like, Cue the music. Story of my life because I was just always cleaning up barf because he was always puking.

Robin [00:12:53]:

18 months. He was throwing up so much at night, and I don't know if like, I was still nursing him back then. No. I wasn't. I still I think I stopped at 18 months. He was having a bottle before bed, so maybe that's what caused it, him to have acid reflux. I don't know. So he started projectile vomiting every night for, like, a week, and we ended up in the hospital for a couple nights.

Robin [00:13:17]:

And that's where I met my pediatrician who has followed him since. So since 18 months to now, she's he's been with the same pediatrician. Why am I telling you this? I don't know. It's all part of the story. So you know? Because maybe, You know, if we told our stories, we would be able to better make connections to other to your own experiences. So maybe you have a kid who's going through the same stuff my kid did, and you're like, oh, maybe that means they have the same, I don't know, psychic abilities. Who knows? Right? I don't know. I don't know.

Robin [00:13:55]:

But I'm sharing my story, so you don't have to listen. But, there's gonna be some juicy, juicy gossip in here. Juicy gossip. I don't know if there actually is. We'll see how this goes. We'll see how it goes. Okay. So Fletcher, he's sick.

Robin [00:14:13]:

They diagnose him with a fructose intolerance. So he goes off all fructose for, like, 18 months or not 18 months. I don't know. I forget how long, but I had to he was at daycare at the time, and I was pregnant, like, 8 months pregnant with my daughter. And I was making, like, zucchini noodles every night to pack 1st lunch in day care. And the great thing about day care was they fed him. I did not have to feed. It was part of included in the thing and but because he couldn't eat any fructose, which is literally, like, in everything, I had to make everything, and he also had food allergies too, so he was allergic to milk and eggs and tree nuts.

Robin [00:14:54]:

And, so it was just like that kid that had to eat at his own table kind of thing. He always had, like, puffy eyes. He always kinda looks swollen. He never slept. Never slept ever. Never. Still doesn't. He's a terrible sleeper.

Robin [00:15:14]:

Cannot sleep. Cannot sleep and then wet the bed for the longest time and may or may not still red the bed on occasion. I'm gonna say he doesn't in case his friends listen to this. But, Yeah. So he, what was I gonna say? He's 18 months. He's sick. But so he does fine in daycare. He's a good kid.

Robin [00:15:52]:

Like, everybody likes him. His speech is a bit delayed. He only started talking really once my daughter was born. So they're 22 months apart. So my son started talking when my daughter was born. So at 22 months, he started saying full words instead of just, like, half words. You'd say, like, for dog, you'd say, duh. Same with dad.

Robin [00:16:12]:

So duh was dad and dog and also car because he couldn't say. So you saw a bus ticket went by. That was a duh too. So mostly everything was duh. He would just point and say duh. And so when the doctor said, how many words does he know? I'm like, well, he knows, duh. And it means at least 27 things. So does that count? She was like, no.

Robin [00:16:34]:

So he went for speech therapy. But by the time he was actually in it, he was talking a lot more. So as long as I see progress so using it a bit, and then I was like, I have a a new baby. I do not wanna be doing this. It's too much, and, so I stopped. Why am I telling you this? Who knows? Because maybe it connects to your life. You speech delayed, Had trouble sleeping. Okay.

Robin [00:17:04]:

Those are some factors. And then, He loved basketball. He was 4. He loved basketball. We had, like, a little basketball net outside, and he'd play all the time. So we we put him in a basketball league. Was he 4? Yeah. No.

Robin [00:17:23]:

He is 5. Sorry. So we put him in a basket. Well, he's in SK. He go by the way, goes to daycare completely fine. There was a couple days there, you know, all kids have where they grab on moms. No one wanna go. Sure.

Robin [00:17:37]:

Absolutely had a couple of those. And then kindergarten started. He went right in. Maybe he had a couple days. Don't even remember. I think he was fine in JK. He had a buddy from daycare in JK, so it helped. And then in SK, he started basketball, went to basketball 1 week, was so excited, thought he was gonna be the next.

Robin [00:18:01]:

I forget who the Canadian guy that got drafted that year, but there was a Canadian guy that got drafted in the NBA. And so he thought he was gonna be the next that guy. Sorry. He really wants to go to the NBA, and I I just burped, so maybe that's confirmation. I'm gonna tell him that. The other day, he asked me, do you think I I'm gonna go to the NBA? I'm like, I don't know. You I don't know. But, like, you really don't you you play once a week and don't ever wanna go.

Robin [00:18:34]:

So why would you go to the NBA? Like, when I was his age, I played prep basketball, and I practiced all day every day. And I still didn't go to the NBA. But I wanna be a positive parent. Right? Anyways. 3. It is so dry in here, so I'm trying to drink as much water and I'm almost done with water. So I might have to go get more water. I where was I going with that? We're he was in basketball.

Robin [00:19:06]:

So he goes to the first one. He's so excited. He he thinks he's gonna be the next whatever. And then, like, 2 days after basketball, he gets really sick, and I take him to the doctors and the doctor, is like, It's viral or something, but I'm not able he's not able to walk at this point. No. You know what? I forget if she said it's nothing or if she said go to the hospital. I think she might have said go to the hospital because he wasn't walking and he was, like, 5. So I had to because I had my daughter, I still had a stroller.

Robin [00:19:47]:

So it was like a toddler stroller. I was pushing him in this and, like, his legs are, like, falling off, but he's way too big for this thing because his leg wasn't working, and the doctor is like, no. Go to the hospital. They'll check him, and it's probably just inflammation, blah blah blah. So we go to the hospital, and, the doctor is like, I don't know what's going on with his leg. It's probably just inflammation from a viral infection. And but he was like, He diagnosed him with bronchitis. I think that's what it was.

Robin [00:20:27]:

And they gave him antibiotics. And then within 3 days, he was walking normal again, but he completely changed his personality and his he just he went from being someone he Cougar Go places to someone who couldn't function at all. And I wonder I wondered for a long time if he had, pandas. It's something, like a strep infection that causes your brain to swell. I think that's basically what it is. So I had him when I was thinking he had pandas, he would I someone told me that If your brain is swelling, just keep giving them Advil. So I was giving him Advil fairly regularly when he was like his mood was really bad, and it would help. But then so I I made an appointment with the doctor.

Robin [00:21:33]:

So going back. He had his 1st week of basketball, and then the next week, he didn't wanna go. And we're like, you have to go. I think he missed that week because we were like, oh, he just got over bronchitis. Like, we'll let him skip. Then the week after, he went and didn't wanna go. He was, like, freaking out and he was there. And when the guy called his name, he didn't answer.

Robin [00:21:56]:

He wouldn't answer. And I was like, Fletcher, why didn't you answer when the guy called your name? Like, they marked you absent. Like a user. I didn't hear him. And, like, he said it, like, 10 times. Like, what were you doing? He was just staring. And and this kept happening. And then I think he made it to maybe 3 3 of his basketball things that he was so excited about.

Robin [00:22:21]:

It was probably 8 8 to 10 weeks and he made it to 3. And some we tried and he would just be clawing at us in the car screaming if you couldn't go. We couldn't go. He was feel like so scared. And then this this behavior went over to his school too, so he was in SK. Again, he went from being completely fine and normal, like, and norm by normal, I mean, like, he would go into the kindy pen and play with his friends. The bell would ring. He would go inside.

Robin [00:22:53]:

There was no fighting. There was no, like and then now we're at a point where all the kids have gone inside. The bell is wrong. Everyone's in. The principal and the EA have to come out and grab him off me, and I'm bleeding going home every day. And this happened for 3 years. I actually had they they put in place they put they gave me my own EA in the morning. He didn't qualify for 1 in school because once he got into the class, he was okay.

Robin [00:23:29]:

But I had I would get to the school 15 minutes early. She would meet me and take him into the school before school started to get him, like, acclimated before school. It was, he said It was the, the playground that was like the anxiety would start in the playground. Because all the noise, it was so loud for him. He couldn't I I don't know how he can function at school and be okay. My teacher said, he's fine in school. He often goes to the quiet zone and just sits there. So at the time, we didn't know what was going on with him, and it was scary, and it was like, where did my baby go? And I kept thinking it was pandas.

Robin [00:24:21]:

And so I was, you know, I went to see a naturopath. We got him on a bunch of vitamins for that. She suspected it too. And, like, Oftentimes, we do things and and immediately, I'm like, this is working. It's working. And then, you know, it doesn't work. And it's I don't know. I'm still in that where I'm like, sometimes things work and sometimes things don't work, and I don't know what the the right thing is.

Robin [00:24:50]:

So, going back. I I'm go to the doctor, and I'm like, something happened after he was sick. He's not the same. He's aggressive. He's, like, anxious. He won't go anywhere. He's attached to me. I can't leave the house.

Robin [00:25:08]:

I remember going out with some of my friends, and I didn't leave very often because I was still nursing my daughter. I think, no, I think I just, oh, I just had another baby. So my other daughter was born. That was another thing. So just had a baby too. Like, this is, like, not great timing, and so I where was I going with that? I don't know. He went from being this kid who was just, like, so sweet to this whatever. And and, I'm telling the doctor this and saying, you know, I want my baby back kind of thing.

Robin [00:25:53]:

And She took it seriously a bit with I don't know. I don't know. It's it's just Canada, but what's great, we have free health care. It's awesome. Wonderful, but when you get referred to a specialist, it's like it can feel like forever. Right? So 6 months later, you know, Maybe it wasn't that long, but it felt like forever of me, like, I'm going to see natural pass. I'm going to let I'm I'm on every Facebook forum trying to figure out what's how how I can get my kid back, you know, and I know I've I think I'm still on a pandas board, and the moms on there and the dads on there that are reaching out are so desperate and just they they go from having this child who's so sweet and whatever, and then In an instant, they become a different person, and that's like, it's really scary. And I'm saying this now not saying it's all connected to being an intuitive kid.

Robin [00:26:50]:

This is part of my story and I don't know what is connected. And so by telling my story, we can make these connections. Right? There's a lot there's a lot of layers to him. And, and then I have 2 other kids who are also intuitive that don't have all these layers. And I don't know. We all have layers, actually. That's that's a lie. We all have different layers.

Robin [00:27:13]:

His layers have been more I've had to peel back more layers early with him than I have with the others, but my kids all have layers. We all have layers. So my doctor refers us to a neurologist. We go see a neurologist a few months later. And, I remember getting a phone call from the neurologist and her number, the last 4 digits were 444 four four four four, like, four fours, and I was like, oh, this is something. This is like there's gonna be something with the neurologist, you know, angel numbers and all that. So I see the neurologist and she I said, you know, a lot of his symptoms, I think It would make sense that he has PANDAS, especially this is the other thing with my son was he always tested positive for strep. And at this point, he'd already had his tonsils and adenoids removed and had strep twice after.

Robin [00:28:15]:

So, like, that's the kind of strep carrier he was. He was a big strep carrier. He like, he would always he doesn't anymore, so it's gone out of him. But so I had this whole thing about pandas and strap and whatever. I've done a lot of research, and my neurologist or his neurologist, I should say, said pandas made up is not a real thing. And that just like I I I understand that a lot of people are have this mentality. Okay? I think that a lot of people who specialize in things, specializing one thing and can only think into that box. And that's like, they can get so good at that 1 box and that's wonderful because She can solve a lot of things about the brain, but to step outside of that box is extremely difficult.

Robin [00:29:06]:

Then there's people like me and probably you because you're still listening to this podcast who live outside of the box. Right? Who it's if you don't have a specialty, you're more like multi potential. Like, you're all over the place. Watch the YouTube or the TED Talk on multi potential. I'm telling you if you're you have more than one thing that you're interested in or viewpoint on something, and you can think outside of the box. You'll understand that that is more of a a gift and a blessing and, but that there is also a place for the people who are in the box. So I try not to be judgmental when people are like, that doesn't exist. I'm like, okay.

Robin [00:29:48]:

Well, you're very helpful in your field. I'm glad you have that. Man, I wish I had a doctor who had an open mind about some stuff. You know? I would love to have, like, a clinic where everything's integrative and you you work with multiple doctors at the same time because because of this, each doctor has their own specialty and they won't think outside of their own body part, you know. So So the mind affects a lot of things. The brain affects a lot of things. And, I would go to my neurologist about my son and be like, his behavior is so bad. She's like, well, you should talk to your psychologist about that.

Robin [00:30:23]:

I'm like, no. Like, why is his brain His brain has changed. It's not him anymore. It had something to do with his mind. And she's like, well, behavior. I'm like, it's all connected. How How are you adopted? You don't see this. Anyways, she did end up diagnosing him with epilepsy, but I think I still think maybe it was pandas that caused the epilepsy.

Robin [00:30:49]:

Right? The inflammation in the brain that caused his his epilepsy to start. Something had to cause it, I think. He wasn't born of it. He was having seizures when he was little. And then what They said was the seizures were causing the anxiety, and then we're old. His psychiatrist said that, but the neurologist says it's not connected at all because it's different. I don't know. Very much in a box there.

Robin [00:31:18]:

And then I would say, like, is it is he having seizures? Is that why he's wetting the bed? No. That's different. And I don't know. I would read all this stuff on the Internet, and and I would dig and dig and dig on Facebook groups and listen to different moms and stuff, have the same experiences that we were having and their doctors kind of saying the same thing. I feel like this is another reason why I'm telling my story here is just because I think that a lot of people go through similar things and because the doctor disregards it as being like, oh, that's not a symptom of this, that it it just gets kind of ignored. And I don't know. Maybe there's more to it if we all told our stories a bit more. So she had told me in our an initial meeting.

Robin [00:32:10]:

She was like, it's either, nothing, and he's just changing because he's at school and he doesn't like his teacher. Is anything going on in your life? Have you recently gotten divorced? Like, she was, like, grilling me about emotional stuff in real life and nothing had happened. But then I was like, oh, I had my daughter and or did I I don't even know if I had I wish I could remember this completely. No. I hadn't given birth yet, so I was super pregnant. This is it. I don't think I had the baby yet. It was like we were going through the struggle with Fletcher, and I was, like, freshly pregnant, and then I had her in January.

Robin [00:32:49]:

So it's really hard to remember a complete timeline. I think that might be SDAM or whatever that memory thing is. So the neurologist says it's either this one brain condition or he's having absence seizures or it's nothing. And it's just a mental thing, blah blah blah. And I was like, okay. Okay. She's like, we need to send them for an EEG. And so she did that pretty quickly.

Robin [00:33:16]:

And then fairly quickly after going for the EEG, we got a call. And and she's like, can you come in tomorrow? And I was like, sure. And I remember being with my girlfriends, and I was like, wanna see me. And I was so scared that he, like, had a brain tumor or something because whenever you get a call from the doctor and they wanna see you, you know, the next day, you're like, of fuck. You know? So I went in We went in the next day, and I I was fully prepared thinking, oh my god. I knew it. Something was wrong. Something you know? Even though in the appointment, you know, not too long earlier, she had said it's either this, this, or nothing.

Robin [00:34:11]:

So it she wasn't testing him for a brain tumors or but this is where your brain goes. Right? Like and this is just to differentiate. In the last episode, I talked about, like, pings and stuff and whatever. When you get a call and they they say you need to come in to see the doctor the next day and your mind starts spiraling and you go to brain tumor, that is not a psychic download. That is a stress bomb. That is not, you know, just just moms have intuition, and I knew that something was wrong with my kid and that there was something more to the picture than just him changing overnight. I knew that in my gut, and I knew that in my soul. But going to brain tumor was me being in a stressed situation.

Robin [00:34:59]:

So just to try to differentiate that because I think it's important because I think a lot of us go to that. You know, we go to stress. We go to, like, oh, my kid's gonna drown or whatever. And those little thoughts are not healthy, and they're not actually true or helpful or you know? So Anyways, I go to see we go to see the doctor and she's does every it's like painful. She goes through everything with him. She's same as the last woman. She takes his height. She takes his weight.

Robin [00:35:34]:

She does a bunch of stuff and exercises on him, does looks in his eyes. What else? All this stuff. All these different things. And I'm just sitting there like, everything is moving in slow motion because I think my kid's gonna die, and I'm trying to hold it together because I'm like, I have to not freak out when she tells me he's gonna die because I'm with my kid, and I can't. You know what I mean? And, like, why is my brain spiraling like this? Like, if I look at the facts, which she said, she says it's either this or this. Anyway, so she starts talking, and she gives him something to play with, like a fidget spinner or something. And, He's like going through her drawers and banging and being really disruptive because at this point, he is just unhinged this kid. He's like a and just a beast.

Robin [00:36:34]:

I don't know. Like, a caveman child. He went from being this lovable He was still lovable, but, like, you'd wanna wear protection around him because you'd be scared that he'd hit you with a random toy, and I got hit a lot. So she says it's not this one thing, which was, some sort of I think it was some sort of brain some sort of epilepsy of some sort that it was like an anger. It caused your temporal lobe to do something. I don't know. And she was like, it's not this. But what we observed on the EEG was that he was having multiple seizures.

Robin [00:37:15]:

And I said multiple. And she says in the EEG, he had 3 seizures that lasted 30 seconds or more. So they measured his or sorry. 60 seconds or more. Was it 60 seconds? I don't remember. But So he had an hour long EEG. And in that hour, his brain just stopped working 3 times for 30 seconds or more. So I started thinking about that, and I got emotional.

Robin [00:37:49]:

And she was like, why are you emotional? I'm like, because if he is sitting there and he can't hear me, and I'm yelling at him, and I'm getting mad at him. Like, It just I felt so guilty about getting so mad, you know, and about it was like, In that moment, I was flashed a basketball and and them calling Fletcher, Fletcher, Fletcher, and him just staring at me like, this blank stare on his face, and I was like, why are you not answering? Like, Fletcher. And it, like And then when he's watching TV and I'm telling him to turn it off and he's not listening to me, these things just kept, you know, flashing to my head. These are the flashes. These are the real flashes that you're like, oh, it's all making sense. It's all connected. Anyway, so they diagnosed with him with epilepsy and, because I think what she said to me and I don't Again, this this whole experience is a bit of a blur because because it's, it was traumatic in a way. Like, it was or dramatic, because I played up this thing in my head that he was gonna die and then she was giving me this, okay, this is an actual thing, which if you ever had anything medical with your kid or with yourself and you are going to multiple doctors or you're just going through your day to day life life and googling and googling and googling.

Robin [00:39:34]:

When someone finally gives you an answer and says, take these pills and it's going to help, you're, like, so emotional and relieved. You know? I wasn't, like, happy that my kid had epilepsy, but I was so happy to have answers and to be like, okay. Take these pills 3 times a day, and this problem should go away. So he started taking his ethosuximide, which was the epilepsy seizure pill that he would take. And I remember posting on Instagram or something. A picture that he drew 2 days, I think, after starting the medication. He we used to we always do art in our house. We're always coloring.

Robin [00:40:25]:

And he used to draw for, like, 10 second and then get so frustrated because it would be out of the line and it would be all messy, and then he would rip it up and thrown on the floor, and this went on for, like, a year of him just scribbling. I never saw him as a good artist because He would just get so mad, and I was at the age where he should be developing more. Like, he's 5. He's he's starting to color more of the lines. Like, my daughter is 5 now, my youngest. And she's starting to have, like, some creative abilities, and she comes up with her own shapes and draws her own things. My son was, like, not artistic. And I was just like, okay.

Robin [00:41:03]:

He's not artistic. Boys aren't autistic, I guess. I didn't actually think that. My older son was very autistic. But, anyways, so he starts his medication 2 days after starting it. First of all, day 1, he's like, can we go for a jog? And I'm like, no. But sure. Like, he needed to get the energy out of he had so much energy in him.

Robin [00:41:32]:

And I was like, okay. We need to go outside. So he was little. He when we ran the entire block, I just walked really fast, He ran. He sprinted. I'd be like, okay. Stop at the stop sign. Wait for me.

Robin [00:41:44]:

And he ran, and we did this, and and he felt better. But he knew in his body that he needed to do that. So sometimes kids with intuition actually know what they need. Sometimes to he still does this when we went to we were doing at my daughter's gymnastics the other day, and I think the fluorescent lights inside the gym are too much for him. So he brings his computer now, and he's like, can I just go sit outside by the tree? And I was like, yes, please. And he's like, He'll come in every 15 minutes or so, 20 minutes, and be like, oh, it's just so much nicer out there. I'm like, yeah. It's fine.

Robin [00:42:17]:

I like watching your sister, but again it. Being outside is better, and he needs fresh air. Hot tip for intuitive kids. If you don't feel like listening to my whole story, Kids need the outdoors. So he starts on the epilepsy medication. 1st day, he's running around in circles. 2nd day, we sit down and we draw, and he, My mom my mom's friend had a book published, and she had these coloring sheets. And he had brought it home from a book launch or my mom gave it to us from a book launch or something.

Robin [00:42:56]:

I don't know. Why it matters? I just remember the picture. Okay? It was a picture of a fox, on a pirate ship. And I framed it, and I put it on our mantle for the longest time because it was perfectly drawn. He went from being just a complete scribbler, like, fist fisting. That sounds awful, but, like, taking the crayon and just grabbing with his fist and just kinda drawing like a crazy person crumpling it, being like savage with his crayon to drawing this perfect picture. It was beautiful. It was completely colored.

Robin [00:43:36]:

The colors were right. Not that they have to be right with a 5 year old, but it was just like really, really well done and just I was just floored that in 2 days of taking this medication, he went from being completely scattered to being able to color a picture. So I think the medication he was on for the epilepsy was definitely helpful, but that it his journey didn't end there. Starting the epilepsy medication helped him. He got in a lot less trouble because we understood what was happening and the pauses stopped. He started just being able to listen again, and we realized it wasn't that he was not listening. It was just that his brain was just not functioning. Right? And when you learn that about yourself, like, we all went through, like, a period of just feeling so guilty.

Robin [00:44:29]:

And, Yeah. It's just a hard thing because he what would happen was he was missing out on all that stuff. So, we would have conversations, and he would not hear half of it. Right? Like and then it's really hard if you have a kid who has absence seizures. It's hard to even know when they're doing it. It's it's hard. I mean, a lot of kids watch a lot of TV or, like, stare at you randomly. He still does it.

Robin [00:44:56]:

He's not on epilepsy medication anymore, but I we're going actually next week for an EEG to to see if he's having seizures again because he I feel like he's staring a lot and I don't and his behavior has been weird again. And it's this constant evolution of trying to figure out, Is it his mind? Is it his brain? Is he seeing dead people? Is it like there's this constant there's so many layers to him. I think there's so many layers to all of us. Right? But the intuition is part of it. And, So when he was diagnosed with epilepsy, I started trying to learn everything about it, and I was trying to learn about different types of epilepsy. And He was diagnosed with childhood absence seizures. So they estimated that he was having, I forget how many seizures a day, but if you went an hour times 24, right, 3 times 24 or whatever that is. 72, 24, 48.

Robin [00:46:00]:

72. Alright. I'm so bad at math. I'm so sorry. My my husband is really good at mental math, and I'm like I'm great at actually doing math if I have a calculator, but mental math, garbage. Just garbage. Just garbage. But I remember when I was in school, like, in grade 4 or whatever when you were doing multiple occasion tables mental math, I was decent.

Robin [00:46:23]:

I was pretty good. So I think it was I was fairly good at memorizing things. Now I just, like, I don't need to have that memorized, so I just it's got out of my mind. So I started learning everything about epilepsy, joined all these epilepsy groups, and my son, all during this period, were having he kept saying he kept having the feeling like something had happened before. He kept having I feel weird. This Feels funny. This feels like some like, he kept having these moments, and the more I, like, researched it, the more I was, like, oh, he's having, like, deja vu all the time, which is a seizure symptom or an or a aura. Right? You feel that aura? Is that what it is? And he was getting them all the time, but he wasn't having the seizures anymore than I could tell.

Robin [00:47:21]:

But then I think he went for another ED, and he was still having them so they upped his medication. But he was having these deja vu moments, and then he kept, like, predicting things that were happening all the time. And I was like, what the fuck is this? There's something to do with epilepsy and psychic abilities. I'm telling you. I am telling you. There is with these aura, these the the things that happen before they have the seizures. They have these experiences. There's something there, 1.

Robin [00:47:51]:

So during this time when his epilepsy was fairly uncontrolled, he was having a ton of visions and a ton of of stuff happening, and then he was having nightmares and having the hardest time sleeping. And I started recording him in bed because I told my neurologist, I'm like, He he, like, sometimes will poo the bed, which is like that takes effort. How do you poo the bed? Is that like a normal thing? I've have 4 kids. I've only ever had 1 kid poo the bed. And it was like he would do it constantly, and I just I had I was like, it has to be something with epilepsy. Like, he has to be having a seizure in bed, and so she's like, well, record it. So I started videotaping. But then I started videotaping, and I'm start getting orbs on the on the, recording.

Robin [00:48:46]:

So I'm videotaping him. He's sitting up at night and he's having these, like, almost like these fireflies going around his head and zooming around. He's looking all around and I'm like, is it dust? What is this? It looks like I don't know. And then in one one recording we had on there, we had it said My husband and I played it so many times because it would record anytime there was movement. So he sat up and is looking around, and it said, Johnny's new. And we're like, what the heck? What was that? We heard Johnny. Johnny for sure. Johnny, no doubt.

Robin [00:49:27]:

And then we kept playing we kept playing, and I was playing it with my friend for my friend. I'm listen to how creepy this is. Johnny. And then Fletcher, who is 5 or 6. I don't know. He comes up to me, and he's like, what are you listening to, mommy? And I'm like, oh, this was something something that we got on your video, but we heard it must be something from the TV. I don't know. We heard this voice.

Robin [00:49:50]:

He said, let me listen. I'll know what it says. And he listens and he goes, it says Johnny's deceased. Can you hear it? And then we play it, and it's like, Johnny is deceased. It was, like, clear as day. As soon as he told us what it was, we're like, Johnny is deceased. Anyways, my my uncle, John, had died not too far before that, and it was, like, The week after that, I think we are going to his funeral, so I feel like that was like him coming through, maybe. I don't know.

Robin [00:50:21]:

That's the only thing I can place it with. But it was there was no TV on. We just don't wanna freak Fletcher out that that voice was just coming in through his room. So the experience with the video camera, like, amplified my belief in ghosts and stuff. And I've always believed, but when you have something like experiences happening in your house, I'm watching for seizure activity and I'm really just getting ghost activity. Crazy. But he was also Fletcher would also, like, get up and have his eyes wide open and follow these orbs with his face. And he'd have these, like, jerking moments, and then he would just, like, lay back down and go to bed.

Robin [00:50:59]:

It was like it was like these orbs or whatever were communicating with him, and then he would wake up and have no awareness of it, but it was like it was captivating on these. I I I need to find them. I swear they're in my email somewhere, these videos, and I if I find them, I will put them on the blog. They're just you watch and you're just like and I remember at the time, I had a friend who lived on my street who was like She told me that she had psychic abilities. And at this time, I didn't really think anything about my own abilities. I just knew when I was a kid, I didn't even think about the fact as a kid that I talked to dead people. It was just like that was that version of myself is so far gone. My kid is a psychic.

Robin [00:51:41]:

Me, I'm just learning about this stuff, but my friend who lived down the road told me all about these abilities she had. So I showed her a video and she was saying that there was a dark entity at one side of the room, but the actual orb was positive and she was telling me all this stuff. And Anyways, at the time, my neighbor across the street was like, oh, I just came from this baby shower or something, and they gave me sage, but I'll never use it because I don't believe in that stuff. You want it? And I was like, yeah. I do. Clearly, I needed that. I went around and staged my house, and things things got better for a bit for him. He stopped setting up so much at night, and he was really into saging.

Robin [00:52:21]:

Like, he liked the experience of it. So, I always I I thought for a while that I needed to, like, be more quiet about, like, what I thought he was experiencing, but the more open we've gotten about it, the more he's been able to express himself to me. Like, sometimes he'll say to me like, well, what if you know, like, we were talking about past lives the other day. And he was like, well, what if this happened to me in a past life and this is why? So he's able to almost, like, process stuff for himself by talking about, experiences that perhaps happened in the past life and props that's why he's like that. And then we're able to talk about like, well, if that's why, let's think about how many different ways it could turn out in this life. Right? So it's actually, like, been very good to talk openly about stuff with him. Currently, He is struggling to sleep because I think it's because my all my kids are having trouble sleeping, and I think it's because of I think my father in law's kicking around. Not haunting them, but I think he's there, and they can sense him.

Robin [00:53:35]:

And, I feel it too. And and I think the kids are really way more in tune than we are, especially at night. And so things like the dark freak kids out because you can almost see energy in the dark. It's interesting. Like, the more you if the more you're alone with yourself in the dark, the more you kinda realize the energy is almost visual. It's interesting. But kids, yeah, nighttime nighttime. I feel like a lot of people say, and I don't know how true this is, that the veil is thinner at nighttime, like, at o'clock in the morning.

Robin [00:54:23]:

I don't know how valid that is, but I know that I often wake up 3 o'clock in the morning and I have to go sit on my couch. And I feel like this guy is talking to me and it feels like I get so much intuitive knowledge. There's so many downloads that happen during that time period. There's so many flashes and whatever. And I feel like my kids are the same. Like, they often wake up in the middle of the night. My daughter is in a on a kick right now for the last month. Pretty much since my father-in-law died, she has to leave her room in the middle of the night and go sleep on the couch.

Robin [00:54:56]:

And that's what I usually do too when I can't sleep. I don't know if it's like being in a bigger open space. It's less, like, scary at or I don't know. I'm not for me, I'm not even scared of of being haunted or, like, in the middle of the night, I go to the bathroom and I keep the the lights off. I just pee in the dark and I wash my hands and I go, but the other night, I was in there and all of a sudden while I'm going to the washroom, the shower starts going off. Not, like, fully, but enough to make the water go out of the shower head. Like, I have a waterfall shower head there, and it was not dripping at all. And then all of a sudden, it's all dripping.

Robin [00:55:33]:

Like, hello, Jim. You know? That's I just assume it's my father. I'm like, I wouldn't mind some privacy peeing, but it doesn't scare me where some people are like, ah, that's so freaky. I'm like, no. It's nice. Like, it's nice to know that, our energy just keeps going on and on, and we can do all this school stuff after we pass. So, where was I going with that? My son going back to my son. So he's got epilepsy.

Robin [00:56:02]:

Let's go let's go back there. So he's going through school couple years. So still in school. He's struggling going to school. And I'm blessed Somehow, his SK teacher who's a supply just for 1 year. They only the school only had this woman for 1 year. Her mother has epilepsy, and, so she's she understands, and we have this whole conversation and she just, like She can, like, under she she was, like, such an advocate for him, and then she, like, just paid so much attention to his behaviors and stuff and relate that information to me, so it was like I was so lucky to have this woman be his teacher for this 1 year. And she also, taught him about mindfulness and, like, did meditation in class, and he really enjoyed that.

Robin [00:56:57]:

And that kept carried that kind of practice through in life. We often do meditations and stuff. So, yeah, that was nice. And then the next 2 years, he had a teacher that didn't pay attention to stuff and he just, like, could not go to school. So that was 2 years of having an EA meet us before and then COVID hit, and then it became better because all the kids could go in right away. So at school, instead of lining up, which was the hardest thing for him. He had trouble, being in the outside, like, shenanigans, like the lining up and the bell ringing. Oh, he just couldn't handle the bell ringing.

Robin [00:57:38]:

And so going straight in was fine, and, That was better. And at that point, actually, we still had it. We had a EA up until We went for so this is 2 years of having an EA help us in the morning. We went for neuro neuro education psychoneuroeducational assessment. So the school in Ontario, if they think that something might be off or whatever, your kid has ADHD or whatever in class. The teacher might put forward this request to have this thing done through the educational system and is paid for, but The teacher was like, nothing's wrong with Fletcher. He's fine. Meanwhile, he's, like, not retaining any information.

Robin [00:58:32]:

He's not he's too scared to go to school. He doesn't remember anything, any homework he has. He has no clue what's going on, and the teacher is just like, no. He's great. Anyways, we had to fight. We not fight, but we had to get an educational assessment. The educational assessment was He was diagnosed with ADHD and, like, severe anxiety, social anxiety, and generalized anxiety with sprinkling of OCD, and, he's, like, borderline autistic. And the pediatrician later diagnosed him with autism as well, which which we haven't I don't it's like a spectrum thing.

Robin [00:59:17]:

Right? Like, I think we're all in a bit of a spectrum. So These are all, like, labels he's been given, but I think he's really just a really weird not weird. I was gonna say thick thick onion. He's just got so many layers to him. There's so many things that are going on in that little brain and body of his, that we've had to figure out, and a lot of it's connected. And then sometimes things aren't connected, and you're like, is this connected? Doesn't mean something. You know? So with Fletcher, We started so we got diagnosed with ADHD, and then I went to my pediatrician. She's like, okay.

Robin [01:00:01]:

We just needed the diagnosis to stardom on medication. So we started him on, Concerta, which is an ADHD medication. And just like the, the drawing where he, like, 2 days later after starting the medication, and he was able to draw that picture a day. I think it was, like, the day after in. He went to school without needing the EA to pull him off me. He was just like, see you. And I was like, what? And I was like, was the ADHD causing the anxiety? Right? Because he had this anxiety of going from the car to the school entrance of, like, going through all these people. And as soon as you started the ADHD medication, all that, the anxiety of going from the one place to the next place was gone.

Robin [01:00:58]:

I think it was like the ADHD medication helped his brain absorb the 400 different thoughts that was going on in his head and and keep it on the one of, like, walking from point a to point b. Do you know what I mean? Like, it took away. And then I think, like, if you're taking away all those thoughts, Are you taking away, like, psychic ability? But then I think about myself, and I think about my mind in the things that come in that are are, I think, intuitive knowledge and there's some things that come in that are, ego driven. Right? And then there's some things that come in that are based off of complete fear. Like, as I was saying before, when I got the call from the neurologist and my brain went to brain tumor because that is my worst fear and that's where our brain goes somewhere. And that those spiraling thoughts are not psychic downloads. They're just stress bombs. Right? They're like, when you have a dream that someone's trying to murder you and you're super scared in your dream, It's because of something that's going on in your life that you're you're scared of happening.

Robin [01:02:21]:

It's a psychological experience. So you having the thought of something terrible happening to your kid because you get a call from the neurologist. That's psychological. It's but it's your worst fear playing out in your mind, and you have to, like, play that out sometimes to preprocess, I guess. Is it healthy? Probably not. I don't know. Maybe a little bit. We have processed stuff.

Robin [01:02:46]:

But I think what happened when my son started the ADHD medication is he was able to dial those thoughts down and and figure out, hey, I'm just walking from point a to point b. And and I think it's okay to get rid of the spiraling thoughts. I think that, if you're worried about medicating your kid and in them not having special abilities or whatever anymore. I don't know. I don't know if that's a thought for other people, but, as soon as he started the ADHD medication, he, started going to school. No problem. And he started, doing more creative projects and he would finish them more. So he would start creative projects and just like leave crafts all over the house.

Robin [01:03:32]:

He still does this, and he's absolutely in need of a met adjustment right now, so I know this. But I was really worried that him starting the the ADHD medication would would he would lose some of his creative spark because he was really He was a problem child in the way that his behavior was very, impulsive. And sometimes that landed him in a lot of trouble. But the things that he would do, I was always like, he's cool. Like, he would do the weirdest things. Like, he would weird, he would he always wanted to wear a sports jacket. Like, he always wanted to wear his best clothes. Like, he'd wear jeans and a sports jacket and aviator glasses, and he'd, like, go outside and play the guitar for the neighbors, like, 5 years old, 6 years old, and, make his own songs up.

Robin [01:04:18]:

He always be writing lyrics. And, Like, he just had so much creativity in that little body of his, and I just thought he was so cool too as much as he he kept us on our toes, and we had to be worried if he held a baseball bat. He was like, just a cool dude to be around when he was, in his creative element. Right? So I was worried about the starting the medication, but what I have to say is he started it and school got better and He was his creativity was amplified and he was able to hyperfocus on things in a healthy way and his impulse control was so much better. Like, I had 2 young girls as well, and I was able to, like, you know, the feeling of of feeling on edge completely and then all of a sudden you get into a warm bath and you're able to, like, let your muscles relax. That's how I felt after a few days of him being on the ADHD medication because I was like, okay. I don't have to worry about someone getting hit by a golf club. I can nurse my daughter without him getting a knife from the kitchen.

Robin [01:05:32]:

You know? Like, He was just and that sounds like he's completely off off the wall crazy, but sometimes, I'm telling you, he was off the wall, and and, and then we would have these moments. We would be in bed together at night. We'd be snuggling, and he he was just the sweetest boy and he cared and he would just talk about the world and the universe and he had such deep, deep thoughts. And, I just love I loved him so much as that troubled little boy, and I still love him now. He still has so many great thoughts in that little mind of his, but the I'm getting ringing in my ear right now. The, the worry of starting the vacation. Like, I just wanna say that in case there's some parent out there listening and they're like, oh, my kid. I'm scared of them with a baseball bat, and I'm worried that if I start medication, they're gonna lose who they are.

Robin [01:06:29]:

It didn't, but it wasn't it didn't end there for him. So and I'm still trying to figure out his medication. I know after telling the story and remembering that that I know for sure he needed to be on something. Right? He needed to be at that point, it was the Concerta, and it really did help him. And he didn't need anything else for a good 6 months. So he was fine, and then he started seeing things. And that was the next thing. And and again, maybe this is something to do with with, Claire, like a clairvoyance.

Robin [01:07:05]:

I don't know. I I don't have the ability to build to visualize. So when my son started talking about how There was bees everywhere in his room, and there was no bees. I was like, I don't know really know what to do with this. And then we couldn't go anywhere because There's too many bugs and, like, he we go to the beach with all the kids and he would scream and make me take him to the car. So I would stay in the car with him for 2 hours while the girls played on the beach because he was scared about all the bugs everywhere that he was seeing. And It became this really, really hard thing that we couldn't do anything or go anywhere because he was so scared. And I remember emailing the principal being like, we were we thought we were doing better, but, I might need an EA again to help me in the morning because He can't function, and he can't, like, he can't he thinks there's and then he was having these, like and he's have this is another thing that is happening again.

Robin [01:08:07]:

He's having these, he keeps thinking that his sisters are saying things and they're not. So he's having stuff in his mind too. And then I'm like, is this clear audience. Like, is this what's happening here? And again, I'm in it, so I don't know fully how to deal with it. Things I know that have helped staying on top of his medication, making sure he's taking the pro proper dose. I'm in the I'm in a right now, I know for sure I'm in the bad zone, and we are going soon to get an update, but we wanted to make sure he's not having seizures anymore and that he we ended up taking so I'm going back a little bit. So he was on concern for a bit, and then he started having these hallucinations. So we put him on another drug.

Robin [01:08:57]:

And since then, he's also been added another or I think oh my god. Anyways, he's on a cup he's on another anxiety med too. So it's like he's on this 1 pill that helps with the ADHD and then he's on another pill that does with the anxiety. And then there's not a one that he deals with for his hallucinations. And each pill that he's taken, I've seen, like, significant improvements. But then I'm like, I had this whole thing when my father-in-law died. I had a whole dream about him. And, it was all about drugs, and it made me end up doing this genetic testing for my son.

Robin [01:09:40]:

And I think It's important that if you if you have a kid who's going on some sort of medication for ADHD or any sort of mental health, issue. I feel like it would be nice to know about this test if you didn't know about it already. I think the government should pay for it. I mean, I'm in Canada, and I'm used to the government paying for health care stuff, but, like, I know how the drug system works in pharmaceuticals. I know it. I know. I just somehow, I think, like, if the right thing. There's a right option out there.

Robin [01:10:18]:

Man, you think that the government would go for it. So in an ideal world before any of us are prescribed ADHD medication, anxiety medication, pain medication, any sort of medication really. We should have genetic testing done to see if that medication will work with our bloodstream and our genetics. So there's a test. I did it through in I thought I thought it was in, but it's not. Anyways, I did this test. It was $299 in case you're like, what's the test? I don't know. It's $299.

Robin [01:10:56]:

I can if you email me, I can send it to you. But it was genetic test that would go through all the pain and mental health drugs. So like any sort of pain, but also ADHD medication, anxiety medication, antipsychotic medication. It goes through all of the medications and tells you which ones work with your genetic profile. I'm sorry. I'm so thirsty. So we did this test for my son, and honestly, most of the most of the things came back fine. There's only a couple that were actually green, which means, like, go.

Robin [01:11:38]:

One of the drugs he's on wasn't even listed, so I was kinda disappointed about that. And then one was yellow and it said he was a low metabolizer. So I'm gonna go through it with my doctor, but I think, like, Imagine all the people in the world who are on medication who don't actually know if the medication is properly functioning for them or if their metabolism goes through it way quicker than someone else. I think it would be really valuable to know this information, and and it's it's so easily available. It just costs a little bit of money. And I did some research because I was like, okay. My doctor sends me. I'm in Canada again.

Robin [01:12:19]:

It's I'm covered, and that's really a wonderful thing. But with that comes other things that are problematic. Right? So people in other countries, they don't have free health care. They think, oh, we're spoiled or whatever, but there there comes things with that, like the waiting to see specialists and, like, our ER system's terrible. And, I try to look on the positive things, but I'm just saying, I sound I sound spoiled here, but trying to get answers for your kid who has an onion list of issues. It's, it's honestly, it's really hard, and and it burns you burns you out quickly. So you're in it, I get it. I feel you.

Robin [01:12:59]:

Feel free to email me. I well, I will listen. So where was I going? I find out he has he's on a bunch of medication. Things I found along the way that are have been helpful for him. And I this whole episode is gonna be about intuition, and I really have just kinda talked about his whole thing, his whole struggles and whatnot. He's 10 now and this has gone like this has been years of us trying to, like, figure out his medication and Also me struggling with, like, if I put him on this, is that gonna help? Like, is he gonna lose all of his psychic abilities? And, like, I just want him to be able to go to school and be happy. You know? I want him to be kid. I don't want him to worry about that stuff.

Robin [01:13:59]:

I also, like, worry my big fear oh, thing I was saying about the drug test. Jesus. My big fear and I'm gonna go back to the drug test here. So my son's on a few different medications, and, I don't think what he's on is fully right for him. I think we could dial back. I think that there's probably a drug out there that's better, that does 2 things instead of 1. And there might be something completely different that might help him heal, like, maybe some sort of hypnotherapy or something out there that we'll get to eventually. But as a parent who's in it and sees his kids struggle on the daily, like, he has to be on medication.

Robin [01:14:45]:

I, and I do a lot of alternative therapies on him. Like, I do a lot of sound healing on him, which really, really helps, so I'm gonna get into that. But one of the hardest things for us has been trying to figure out the medication. So so so we've been he he tried a couple different medications too, for anxiety and whatnot. And so it's been, like, a lot of ups and downs and it hasn't been easy. And out any parent I talked to who has a kid oh, sorry. I just touched my phone. That was annoying.

Robin [01:15:24]:

Any parent I've talked to who has a kid who is on the spectrum of any sort who's ADHD who's neurodiverse in any way. The parents are fucking exhausted and figuring out the medication is the last thing. They just want the doctor to be like, this is the right thing. Go forward. Save yourself. You know? I think a lot of moms are like, if you can't figure this you need to medicate me because I cannot take this anymore, you know. And I know this because I've heard so many exhausted parents and I've I know I know it. I've been in in it.

Robin [01:15:58]:

I'm still in it. I've gotten a lot better at, you know, understanding and dealing with all but, So I was doing research into, again, the health care system. When you go for generic blood tests in Ontario so I'm in Ontario, Canada. If you are uninsured and you go for your, like, generic blood work or whatever and you have to pay out of pocket. It's like $300 or the a one c is like $300, $150 something. I don't know. It's so the government is paying for these these tests anyways. The test to find out if drugs are gonna work properly for you, which would help the doctors better diagnosed and better prescribed drugs.

Robin [01:16:48]:

It would make their job much easier is $299. And I'm sure if they worked out some deal with the government where they they only the they pay them 1,000,000,000 of dollars to actually own the test or whatever. Imagine how many people would be saved if they did that. Anyways, I had to pay out of pocket, which is annoying because I don't work right now. Put. I thought, you know what? If I'm gonna talk about this, I'd probably do the test, and, I'm going to see the pediatrician in a couple weeks to go over it. There's definitely some of the medication that he's metabolizing at a slower rate, and that definitely affects how you process things. And and I talked to the pharmacist, and she says that he's not optimized on his medication yet.

Robin [01:17:36]:

So Sometimes it just takes some tweaking and whatever. But I'm really happy that I did this test. So if you have a kid who's who you're going through some sort of neurodiverse whatever, and you're thinking about medicating them in some way. I think that this is an important thing that you should do even if it costs money. I know it sucks. I really wish that we had more support from, like, insurance companies and, the government. But really, If you think about how the medical system works and stuff, it's not always our best interest. It's about the money and the pharmacies and all that stuff.

Robin [01:18:19]:

Right? Like, doctors have drugs that they prescribe more than others because they have relationships with their pharmaceutical reps. Think about it. So if you do your own research on medications that you're gonna give your kids to, I think that's important. I've I've, like, researched all the ones that he's on, and I'm and, I try to get, like, a good understanding of what he's taking and and whatnot. So just that's like his medical history, and, and I've said a bit about, like, the seeing the ghost in his room and stuff. And he had the fire thing happen. He predicted a flood at his school, and that was when He had such a great principal. He had a principal and vice principal back then.

Robin [01:19:05]:

They were just the kindest people. And I remember he was having this, like, meltdown about this flood, and I was like, don't worry. Like, floods don't happen very often. Like, let's not be too scared about this flood. And then the next day, I went to go drop them off with the and he's like, Fletcher, I need you to come with me. Misty's inside. I need your help. There was a flood in the school, And he just he was just doing it because he knew he was super anxious, and he was the other helper person.

Robin [01:19:41]:

Like, I he was it's it was either him or the other, the EA. And, anyways, he did brought him inside, but Fletcher looked at me like, see? I think it was his birthday, actually. It was his birthday that day that there was a flood on his birthday. Anyways, he he and then he predicted my son my friend's son's birth being traumatic, and He was like, in 4 days, it's Armageddon. There's something ridiculous, and her birth was so awful. I was I was her birth partner, and I, Before that, I thought about being a midwife. And, I'm really glad that I had that experience, but I'm still almost dealing with the as a highly sensitive person myself. Witnessing someone in extreme pain is is, it's really difficult.

Robin [01:20:33]:

So I'm blessed that I don't get to experience that very often, and I'm blessed that I did get to experience it because I feel like it taught me a lot about who I am, and it also taught me that I probably shouldn't be a midwife or maybe I should be a midwife because I really care, and I can sense when things aren't going right because I definitely feel like I made an intervention there that needed to happen. I don't know. And I feel like sometimes the hard things in life, the things that make you feel really uncomfortable and make you think and make you sad and make you whatever are the things that actually make you grow and the things that sometimes you need to lean towards. Maybe I should be a midwife. Nope. No. I don't wanna be a midwife. I am really good at babies, though.

Robin [01:21:19]:

I am a baby whisperer. Give me a crying baby. I will get that baby to stop crying. I'm pretty good. So other stuff with Fletcher and my other kids. So going into, like, intuitive kids, I know I really was gonna talk about that and I kinda just went into our whole story, but I think that who knows what will what what you'll take of that. So with my son, we always try to play intuitive games and my daughters love this too. We I'm sitting right downstairs and I'm reminded of We play darts often.

Robin [01:21:54]:

I haven't done this in a while actually, but we would play darts. And because my kids are terrible and they can't actually aim or do anything. They would just say random numbers before throwing it and then see if it would land on the random numbers. And my son was so accurate. He'd be like, 217, 9, 12, and, like, say it midair and he would get it. And I'm telling you, he was not naming like, aiming. He was just psychically knowing where it was gonna land. And then we whenever we we would press the button at one of those elevators, like, 3 elevators in a row.

Robin [01:22:35]:

We would play the guest the elevator. So, like, little psychic games like that or you're sitting down and, like, on our porch, we'll sit there, and we have a very, like, quiet street. To play, like, guess which color the next car that goes by is gonna be or you're at the mall, guess who's gonna walk, what color the next person's shoes are gonna be or the like, little things like that. We play games like that all the time. And my daughters and I, they're in a bunk bed together, and I go to my daughter's bunk bed top and top bunk bed and snuggle her for a bit, and we play a game where she guesses the color in my mind. And then I do it with my other daughter. And my other daughter really likes playing this game where I get to pull memories out of her brain. And so she's like, okay, pull 1 out and I just, like, play around with her brain and I try to suck a memory out, and I'll tell her a story about something that happened at school.

Robin [01:23:28]:

And I just make it up, and she's like, yeah. Johnny was there. Blah blah blah. And I'm always just making it up. And then I'm like, Am I making it up or did that actually happen? And it always has happened. But really, in my mind, I'm just, like, making up a story of something that could have happened, but she's always so blown away. And then that experience will lead to her telling me more stories, and that's fun. My daughter, my youngest daughter, is an intuitive artist for sure.

Robin [01:23:54]:

She wakes up in the morning and channels art. She will get up. I should do a blog post just on her art because she will draw. She's 5 and she draws these elaborate things and it's a story. The other day, she drew a picture of a woman. She's like, I don't know who this woman is, but she's got a horror hole in her sweater. She's walking down the road, and this cardinal comes and swoops down her, and there's this picture of a cardinal. And she's like and then there's these 2 Blue Jays here, and the 1 Blue Jays sending her love.

Robin [01:24:26]:

And she wants the woman in the sweater to know that she's loved. And there's this whole, like, thing and I'm thinking, oh my gosh, this is like, I think it's a picture of my friend who goes for walks, and she's always telling me that the birds, like the blue jays, her grandpa. And, like, I swear there's a picture of my friend, and her sweater's got a hole in it. I don't know. And then this morning, she said she She came up to me and she's had this picture of 2 broken hearts. My friend recently went through a little bit of a breakup and, anyways, we're talking about Christmas and how she felt like something was coming in Christmas. And and she went to see a Reiki person, and the Reiki person said something similar. And we keep getting Christmas, Christmas, Christmas, and whatever.

Robin [01:25:15]:

And and my daughter comes to me this morning and with these broken hearts. I'm like, oh, I'm so sorry. Why'd you draw some broken hearts? It's so sad. Like, and she goes, it's not sad, mommy. Look. And there's a bit of green at the bottom. And immediately in my head, I'm flashed too. And these again, this is a flash, random flash.

Robin [01:25:36]:

This thing this whole thing I watched about Japanese. Hopefully, it's Japanese. Gosh. I hope I don't I don't have that wrong. The art of, like, the bowls that crack, like, when something's broken and they put it back together with the gold, like, paint or whatever. I don't know what it is, but it's so beautiful. It's just gorgeous. It's like you're repairing it by adding beauty.

Robin [01:26:01]:

So I have this flash in my head. Sorry. I have to get more water. This is why you hear me walking here. I had this flash and I had about so the part is broken, but there's this little green at the bottom. The the green is like the repairing of the gold or whatever. Anyway, she goes, see mommy? And she's like, watch. And then she starts drawing this Christmas tree that's coming out of the heart, and I'm, like, flash to the conversation I've had with my friend 24 hours earlier, less than 24 hour, about the Christmas and how she thinks love's coming and Christmas.

Robin [01:26:33]:

And and my friends or my daughter's drawing was broken heart that's growing a Christmas tree. Like, it's so funny. My She does stuff all the time and and the and she, she also every morning has a theme to what she's, like, gonna wear. And she's like, I don't know. It's something intuitive. Like, she wakes up and is being told, Okay. Today is white day, and she has to wear all white. And, like, it's just I don't know.

Robin [01:27:04]:

All pink. And then and she'll have, like, different themes. Like, today's water day, and, like, she'll drink a lot of water and wear all blue, like, talk about water. She's so funny. She's so funny, but, like, her art, Every time she does art, I'm like, what does it mean? And you're like she's like this little intuitive artist. The best thing is she this is nothing intuitive, but she, went to a birthday party this weekend and came home her Oh my god. This is an hour and a half episode, and I'm just, like, rambling about nothing. She went to a birthday party, and she fuck.

Robin [01:27:50]:

Came home with a notebook, and she was like, it's my new diary. I'm so excited. I get a new diary. And I like all the time buy her diaries because I think I don't know. I like note notebooks for kids. I think it's a healthy way to, like, process your emotions, talk about things, draw whatever you want, whatever. She's learning how to read and write, so it's a good thing. Right? So she brings this diary home.

Robin [01:28:11]:

She spends, like, hours in her bunk bed drawing in this diary. And then at night, she goes, okay, mommy. I wanna show you what's my diary, but don't tell anyone. It's top secret. It's my diary. And it says on there, Ophelia's dairy. Like, diaries spelled wrong. It's spelled dairy the best.

Robin [01:28:28]:

I love kids. And then she proceeds to show me, like, 30 pages in her diary of pictures of pizza. One page is a plain pizza. The next pizza is with pepperoni. Next has mushrooms. Next as no cheese, like, it just goes on and on. There's a picture of pizza oven, and then there's a picture of like, it's this whole story about this pizza oven and mixing ingredients and whatever, but it's like 30 pages in her end. Like, what is this? Are we getting a pizza oven? Is she predicting something? Stay tuned.

Robin [01:29:01]:

Stay tuned. And then my other daughter, my middle kid, who is the Olympic athlete, She my friend and I used to joke around about her being, like, the the least intuitive one because she's just so she's more like my husband in in that She's, I don't know. She's actually, like, the perfect combination of the 2 of us. Like, she's very, driven and not that I'm not driven, but my husband's like the energizer bunny keeps going all the time. She's very much like that. And but she's also, like, very emotional like me. So we have, like, the the two sides. But, I recently realized that she often will bring me my signed, so I I will often ask for a sign throughout the week.

Robin [01:29:50]:

I haven't done this in a while actually, but I I asked for a sign. And one day, I had a blue crayfish, a blue crayfish, something ridiculous. And she came home and was like, my friend has a blue crayfish. And I was like, what? Like, she and she will do that all the time. Same thing. Bring home a picture she drew with the sign that I asked for or like a story. She'll be like, mom, come here and watch this random video on YouTube that I hate watching random videos on YouTube that are stupid. And it'll all of a sudden, it's like a thing of red balloons go by, and that was my sign for the week.

Robin [01:30:32]:

So your kids, if you're developing your own intuition, just pay attention to your kids because they are the masters of bringing signs forward. Masters. They are so good at bringing forth signs from the other side and from, like, just the universe if you're asking for, like, a sign for guidance, whatever your kids are. My kids are all the time are like, mommy, mommy, look at this. And I'm like, don't wanna watch this stupid, then I'm like, oh, I do wanna watch that. That is exactly what I needed to see. Thank you very much. Wide.

Robin [01:31:06]:

Didn't like, my kids are often, I think, tools they're like kids are annoying sometimes. Right? Like, sometimes you just wanna, like, listen to your audiobook and, like, do the dishes and not to listen to screaming. But oftentimes, what I've noticed is my kids will kind of snapped me out of when I'm in my head, you know, when I'm living in my head and I'm I'm in a zone where I'm, like, analyzing things or I'm living in an ego zone, They will somehow snap me out of it to be in the present moment. And often those times when they snap me out of it to be in the present moment, I'm, like, presented with something that I've been asking for all along that I wasn't getting because I was in my head. So kids are great tools for that. And I also wanted to say, I'm sorry this episode is so long. I am, like, super into self there and meditating and, finding that time for yourself to, like, develop your own intuition, your own, like, ability to connect with yourself and all that stuff, and it's important to be able to have that time for yourself. And I I'll get frustrated because my kids never wanna leave me alone.

Robin [01:32:17]:

They love me so much, and that's a wonderful blessing and wonderful and blah blah blah. But often, I'm just like, oh, I just wanna meditate in peace. What I have found in the last few months is the more I involve my kids, the more they wanna be involved, which is annoying sometimes, but it's really beneficial for them to develop this practice too. So to to have them involved. I think as annoying as it can be sometimes, I think it's gonna help them have these practices going forward that are gonna really help them understand themselves a little bit more. So I've been doing the tuning forks with my kids, and they are obsessed. They love it so much. If you have a kid who's, like, neurodiverse in any way, and if even if you don't, so my daughters, They are I don't know.

Robin [01:33:07]:

They could have some sort of ADHD too. Honestly, I don't know. But because my son is so far swinging in the ADHD direction. They seem fairly normal. I hate the word normal because we all are I know we're all so unique and different. They all love the tuning forts. It's not just fuck. I just I got my, candle going, and I've been doing this for 2 hours, so it's like burning everywhere.

Robin [01:33:34]:

They, they love I could just blow the candle out. What a moron. They love the tuning forks, and they love the singing bowls, and they just love Reiki in general. So I do Reiki on them. They love like, my kids love snuggling. Right? And they know that I'm a good snuggler. I think that I've got, like, special healing energy in that way. Like, honestly, all the kids come up to me frogs too.

Robin [01:33:58]:

I think I'm actually just a really good hugger. I think I've always had that power. So I I do Reiki on them. They love it. And I'm like, I keep thinking, oh, I need more people to practice on. Then I'm like, I'm my kids wanna do this all the time. I'm gonna take advantage of my kids being into this stuff. And, so I'm just sharing that in case you're like you're trying to develop something and you're like, oh, my kids are getting in the way of this.

Robin [01:34:21]:

Like, the kids can be used to, like, help you practice, in the kids, and it can help the kids in a lot of ways. So with the sound healing with my son with his ADHD, I said in the last episode or another episode that I can feel the electrical impulses in his body. And I don't it's not that when I do the Reiki and the sound healing, those go away, but the impulses are kind of guided in a more healthy way. And after he leaves and he goes back to bed, he always feels more relaxed. He feels like this energy going through him is settled a bit. So I highly recommend I can put it in maybe I'll put it in a in a blog or something, something with the sound healing. I don't wanna be like I don't I can post what I have. I have tuning forks.

Robin [01:35:08]:

There's one that's 5 12 c's. What is that? What does c stand for? Something musical. 256 and 128 c. I don't really know much. I just wanted to get some to play around, and I would love to get more. But, this is what I have to start with, and it's been really helpful. And I use that with some crystals, and I play around. And it's been really great for him to kinda regulate his own frequency in his body, and I really think it's been helpful.

Robin [01:35:37]:

He really loves it. Hey. Maybe maybe you have a kid who's really stressed, and you get them a tuning fork, and they just play with it when they go to bed, and they feel that vibration. My son was saying I think I said this in the last episode that we wanna invent, like, a a vibrating blanket to kind of give the same sensation. I think that like, he kept saying, I just wish I had that sensation on me all the time. So I think tuning forks would be a good gift for a kid, honestly. If you have a kid with instead of a fidget spinner, get a tuning fork that you keep doing, and you can just, like, keep tuning into that vibration and feeling in that energy instead of feeling out of sorts because I think a lot of people with ADHD and stuff. They feel out of alignment with their own energetic body and, like, getting into that.

Robin [01:36:26]:

The medication helps, but, like, There's other things that you can do to get into your energetic alignment that my son again, like, being outside, going for nature walks, just going out in the forest, grounding yourself. Anyone anyone on this earth, If you can go out there and put your feet in the grass or sand or whatever, it will help you feel more balanced and more aligned with your own energy. So I think people with ADHD. I I think it was on the podcast, The Spirit Speakers podcast, I think. And they said that instead of sending your kid for a time out, Send your kid to walk around the yard 3 times or walk around or go hog a tree for 3 minutes instead. Like those. That is so much more beneficial than time outs, and I always have to remind myself that because that's something that I really need to actively do with my son. Like, when my son's being annoying and my daughter's tumbling, instead of being, like, go play on my phone in the corner over there, I should say, go walk to the park and back, you know, go outside for a bit.

Robin [01:37:27]:

You know? And he's he's recognized that now. He's like, I'll just go sit outside by the tree. He knows it makes him feel better. So environment being out in the in whatever, connecting to the element that they connect with. Some kids are really into fire. Some kids are really into water, being in the water. Some kids are really into nature. Right? Connecting to the element.

Robin [01:37:46]:

If your kids are fire energy, they might be super passionate about things, super just like fiery and and spunky. But they might be, like, mesmerized mesmerized by looking into a candle for, like, want to light candles and blow them out 500 times. That's a thing for sure. So I try to just lean into that energy. And my gosh. What else did I have to say about good things? Music. There's always a vibe in your house. And if you wake up on the wrong side of your bed and your kid is being annoying or whatever, there's, like, 90 seconds.

Robin [01:38:24]:

And it's hard when you have a kid who's, like, super hard to come off meltdowns. But for the most part, most people are able to, like, change their mood in 90 seconds. So that's usually a song. So if you can get everyone on the same song mood, if if there's a song you can play in your house when the mood is going wrong. You know? My daughter loves that Girls on Fire by Alicia Keys, and so we play that a lot in our house. But if you oh, Green Green Grass by George Ezra is a big one for us. Everyone in our house likes that song. So when I can feel the mood shifting in the house.

Robin [01:38:59]:

I'll often, like, play that, and and everyone seems in better mood after. So, like, 90 seconds can really make a difference, and if you can play music during that time. Sometimes music doesn't work. Sometimes my my son is like, don't play anything. And sometimes he's in a mood where he's banging all the time, and I'm like, That's him like stimming, and he has to do that, but it drives everyone else crazy. How can we do this in a healthier way? I don't know what the answer is yet. I'm like, do I buy my drum set, or is that way worse? Don't know the answer. I've seen those, like, those I get them all the time on my Facebook feed.

Robin [01:39:33]:

They're like I think it's by Balmy. I might get one of those. It's like a drum that doesn't sound so bad. Like, it's a it's like a steel drum. It's really pretty. I think you would love that actually. So music is really great for kids who are intuitive, but also who are who are neurodiverse in any way. And I think that an important part about raising a kid who who's intuitive and who is just like, It's a scary thing.

Robin [01:40:08]:

It's just to be, like, completely open and listen and just kind of believe and listen. Right? I think that's one of the reasons why kids come up to me at the schools because I listen, and I'm never like, don't don't be absurd. That's stupid. You know? I'm like, okay. Well, I ask follow-up questions, and I never want anyone to feel uncomfortable sharing something with me, and I want yeah. Anyway so I think that if you have a kid who's who's going through who's intuitive or whatever. Make normalize it as much as you can so they feel as comfortable as possible talking to you about stuff. In our house, like, the the lights flash and we're like, hey, pops or Hey, Omi.

Robin [01:40:55]:

You know? Hey, Super Omi. Like, anyone who's dead in our family, we we regularly talk to because we assume they're around us. That's normal in our house. My husband's not quite there, but he's also, like, not against it because then my kids get to have a relationship with their his father, and It's a beautiful thing. So, that's regular in our house. And I think the more we make things like that regular, the less scary it is to talk about. And so my 10 year old son who has problems sleeping at night, he's able to, like, communicate why and what's happening, and we're able to talk about it a bit more. And we talk about it while I'm doing the sound healing, and he's able to release some stuff.

Robin [01:41:37]:

And if he held that stuff in, That would be I mean, it it would be a lot worse. So I think being an open vessel for your kid to talk to is really probably the most important thing in the journey. And, again, I don't have all the answers, but I think that that's been the best thing for me is just being open, for to to be able to listen. So I hope this episode helped in some way. If you have a kid who's intuitive play games to amplify their intuition, fun games, and it it those games can help you also in player intuition. We play in where we flip the card. We just go red or black. It's like playing war, but you're just going red or black.

Robin [01:42:20]:

And we do that all the time. Like that. We do stuff like that all the time, and it's just really fun. And, yeah, I think that's all I have to talk about today. Kids? Oh, I I don't know. I could go on and on about, like, past lives and stuff. I think I said on the epilepsy board. I don't know if I said this, but I went on there once and and I said, does anyone else on does anyone else have kids who have psychic abilities, and there was like it was a shit ton of answers, and the answers were like, yeah.

Robin [01:42:56]:

My kid was a carpenter in a past life, and you can name all the tools. I've never even heard of them. They're definitely not on Bob the Builder, but I don't believe it because I'm Christian. Like, the all these things that people would have all this proof of stuff and be like, but it's not real because it can't be because my religion says so, which I think is just interesting. Anyways, so there's something in the epilepsy and the psychic abilities just in case you're, like, just You didn't finish that story. I could go on about that for, like, another 3 hours, so I'm gonna stop this episode here. I feel like every layer of my son's stuff, I could go on for for more, but, basically, he's a he's a he's an onion, and he's very intuitive, is very connected, has has turned it off a lot since being in school. He's in 5th grade now, and he definitely shuts it off a lot.

Robin [01:43:48]:

But nighttime is really hard for him. So, Yeah. That's all I have to talk about today, I guess. I know I'm gonna talk more about this in the future. So I'm sorry this is an hour and 45 minutes, and I'm not even done with everything I have to say, but I hope something got through to someone in this episode, and I hope you have a wonderful day. And check out my website, appendedijexperiments.com. I hope to, connect with you further. Have a good one.