Spiritual Awakening: Dreams, Symbols, and the Interconnectedness of Life and Afterlife

Speaker A [00:00:00]:

Hello, and welcome to another episode of Aphantasia experiments, as well as the psychic school podcast. I'm gonna do both here because I'm gonna talk a lot about a lot about a lot about a lot of things in this episode. I just recorded an entire episode. It was an hour long, and then I listened back. Thankfully, I listened back to more than 20 minutes because I ended up pacing into my bedroom and closing the door and the WiFi cut out, so it just didn't you don't hear big chunks of it. So I'm gonna rerecord. Hopefully, I can get a lot of the same information into this episode. And if, I don't know, I feel like everything happens for a reason.

Speaker A [00:00:43]:

There's probably something I said in that episode, or something I was missing in that episode that needed to be said, but I can still transcribe it and make it into a blog. So there there's it is what it is. I was gonna record 2 podcast episodes today anyway, so now I'm just recording 1 twice. So before I get started with all of the things, there's so many things. I wanted to say last week, I had a hyper focused day and I made a website. So it's aphantasiaexperiments.com. If you have aphantasia and you want to learn more, this can be your go to place. I'm gonna just keep posting stuff, any sort of knowledge I learn, any store, anything that kind of comes in, I'm gonna post about it.

Speaker A [00:01:29]:

This is gonna be my new fun thing. So all my podcasts will go up there. I'm gonna blog on there. I will share whatever experiments I do on myself on there. And also there is a donate button, so if you are interested in donating to my podcast, my vision. You know, any sort of donation is appreciated. It just helps me learn and grow, and, do these experiments. You know? I think that I could solve a lot of these questions and problems that we have.

Speaker A [00:02:08]:

If I were to just meditate a little bit more on it or focus, I think, you know, solving the problem. I don't even like to call it a problem anymore. Solving the, oh, I'm getting ringing in my ear. My left ear is ringing right now. I think that if we, like, took a moment and stepped back and, like, focused on this, we could figure it out pretty quickly, and that's what I'm kind of trying to do. But I also quit my job, and I mean, there was other parts involved, obviously. But anyways, if you want to cure aphantasia or want to learn more and you want me to keep experimenting, you can donate. But also, I wanted to say, I don't want to just take your money.

Speaker A [00:03:03]:

The purpose of this podcast. I want to I'm trying to learn as much as I can. I read books all the time and listening to podcast, I'm meditating constantly, I'm getting all this information. I'm sharing everything I can with you. I feel like I get to a point where I'm like a pot that's flowing over and I need to get podcast episodes out, otherwise I will load, I have all this information coming in. And I wanna do that all for free, you know. So if there's a donation, that's great. But I also just like wanna give that you.

Speaker A [00:03:34]:

But I do believe in like energy exchanges. And I never really thought of this before because I think I love doing this. Absolutely like this is my favorite thing. I love talking to my friends and what's better than talking to my friends? Talking to like a global audience, anyone can listen and take stuff from this. It feels really good. People email me from all over the world, and it feels like this is the best feeling in the world that I can share what I learn with people around the world. I don't need money for that, but I did my Reiki one and I wanna talk more about that. And for Reiki, they say that you should always have some sort of energy exchange.

Speaker A [00:04:18]:

And, I've done Ricky on a few people now, and it's been such a magical experience. It's almost like I'm getting something out of it from doing it to them, so I don't feel like I need money. The thing is, an energy exchange doesn't always have to be monetary, right? Some of the best exchanges I've had in my lifetime have been like, more a compliment or, you know, an email saying something nice, or it doesn't always have to be monetary. It could be like, hey, I know someone that I think you might have common interest in, like making connections and stuff. There's so many different ways that we can have energy exchanges. You know, if your friend is looking for a job, and you see the perfect job on Facebook, and you relay that job to that person, that's an energy exchange, you know. So don't always think about it as money. If you get something out of this podcast, you can email me, rofocreativegmail mail.com.

Speaker A [00:05:21]:

I love hearing from people. You can leave me a review, whatever, anything is lovely and wonderful. And I wanted to say too for the website, I am working on making meditation tracks. I wanna do a whole series of meditation tracks. But I want to make them super professional and super high quality. The sound. I've learned so much about sound and the different frequencies, and I'm trying to learn and soak in as much knowledge as possible, so I can put the right types of sounds and frequencies into these meditations that will be available on my website eventually soon. So I wanted to throw the website out there, fall along, you know.

Speaker A [00:06:06]:

Eventually, I'll get more on social media too. I'm on TikTok, but I find social media exhausting. And, I'm reading this book called Soul Shift right now by Rachel Macie Stafford. It's one of 2 books I'm currently reading. And there's a page in there, it's actually right in front of me right now. I wonder if I can find it while I'm talking to you, but there's a page in there that talks about, how you can be one thing and not another. I'm going to really need, I'm going to need, what she says, because it really resonated with me. I find that you start a podcast because you think, okay, I wanna help people, but then it's like okay, you start a podcast.

Speaker A [00:06:54]:

You also need to start an Instagram. You have to do this, you have to do that, and I don't want to do everything. I don't. And you might not feel the same. This is really annoying that I'm looking for a page while I'm on here with you. Okay. I'm not even gonna bother. Basically, it's like, I am a teacher, but not an influencer.

Speaker A [00:07:30]:

I am a podcaster, but I'm not a social media guru. I am like, you can be one thing and not everything, and that's me. And I don't want to be someone who spends her day, you know, cross promoting all of our stuff on Twitter, Instagram, whatever. I want my podcast to get out there and to reach the people that it needs to reach to. And, and then spend the rest of my life experiencing life and being off off the Internet a bit. So today's episode, I don't even know what I talked about last couple of minutes. It. It's 8 minutes in already.

Speaker A [00:08:10]:

I don't even know what we talked about. Basically, I just wanted to say I have a website. So sorry I rambled so much about that. There was some information in there that you're like, okay, thanks Robin for that. Because I don't know, I just rambled on. Okay, I need to do a episode, a follow-up episode to my 30 day grounding challenge. So if you're listening to this, and you're like, Robin, started a 30 day grounding challenge. You haven't posted about it.

Speaker A [00:08:36]:

I know. Okay? I know. I know. I'm sorry. I truly am sorry and I'm going to get to this. As I mentioned before, I think I mentioned it here, I might have mentioned it on the podcast I just recorded, but I feel like a pod that's about to overflow and I needed to record a podcast episode. I've had a crazy few weeks. I will get to that in the episode.

Speaker A [00:08:59]:

But just so you're aware, the grounding thing has been absolutely magical for me and I can talk about it for so long, and I will in a follow-up episode. But I do need to do a like a follow-up questionnaire because I had a questionnaire for the start of the challenge, and now I need a questionnaire to finish. And I just haven't been in that mode yet, because I've had some crazy experiences the last week that has kind of just pushed me into a different space. But Grounding is so important. It's insane. The difference it can make make on you, if you actively ground yourself. So in the last month, my intuition, my psychic development, my mediumship abilities have just completely cracked open. And it's for several reasons, but I believe it started with grounding.

Speaker A [00:09:58]:

When I started grounding, I started being more in tune with who I am like at a soul level. I felt like the earth was speaking to me, through me, and it reminded me of the things that bring me joy. It reminded me of who I am and what my purpose is. It reminded me how to hold space for other people. Just like everything being the earth helped me like realign myself. You know, if you go through all the chakras, like it felt like they were all in place every time I would step into my garden. And so I can talk about this for a long time. But one thing I did want to say was, so I'm in Canada, in Ontario.

Speaker A [00:10:49]:

Not in the coldest place in Canada, we don't live in igloos or anything. I know a lot of people from other parts of the world think Canada, they think we're we're in Igloo, but we do have 4 very different seasons here. So we're in kind of mid to end October here and it's getting chilly. It goes from like, we can swim in our pool, in our backyard to, we need to wear boots in a week. Like, it can shift in a week, it's wild. Sorry. I just need a sip of water there. I was gonna get to go in my throat.

Speaker A [00:11:26]:

So it's getting cold now, and I'm I was walking through the forest just wearing sandals, and it's been such a magical experience. I walk the forest. Just wearing no shoes, my feet are really dirty after, and then I come home wash my feet, la dee da. And then throughout the day, I have an alarm that goes off on my phone, tells me to ground, I go into my garden and I ground. Bada bing bada boom. That's what I've been doing. But now it's getting cold and I wake up at like 6 o'clock in the morning. It is pitch black in Ontario at 6 o'clock in the morning in the fall, like, end of fall.

Speaker A [00:12:00]:

So I'm getting up and I'm walking through the forest, and there's some light in my forest, And then there's this path that's like pitch black, and I've been avoiding this patch. I go through the light part, and then I walk through. Anyways, the last couple days, I've been wearing shoes, because I'm just too cold in the morning to leave the house with sandals on. And so I've been trying to ground myself in other ways while I'm on my walk. I think just being in the forest is really important. It gives you negative ions. Like, I don't know the science behind it, but I know being in a forest can change your frequency. So I make sure every day I go through the forest.

Speaker A [00:12:44]:

I'm very very lucky I have a 2 minute walk from my house. So I've been doing that and I touched the trees. I've been trying to, I understand I did Reiki, I'll get more into my Reiki training, but, I am like really understanding how powerful the palms of my hands are, and so I keep putting my palms of my hands on things like trees, plants, whatever. But I also understand the soles of your feet are important too, and you can get so much into you through the soles of your feet. So whenever I can, I take my shoes off? But on my walk, I'm just touching trees. I'm also, whenever I see a good big tree, I will like lean my back against it and kinda do like a sitting squat against it, and I can feel this, like, energy go in me. The trees, I'm telling you, have so much wisdom. They can guide you in so many ways.

Speaker A [00:13:44]:

We are so disconnected from nature and its ability to impact us and make us feel alive. And it's it's wild, how quickly you can refuel that by just doing these grounding exercises. So, for example, on the weekends, I find I'm very dysregulated because my whole family's here, and they enjoy their devices and it's like electronic overload a bit. And I often like will say, no no TV for the rest of the day or whatever. And that that's good. This weekend was actually great because my kids were like into Lego. They go through little spurts of being into Lego and there was like Lego all weekend, which I love, because it shows, you know, they have an imagination and they don't just watch YouTube videos. Anyways, weekends are hard for me usually, because there's so many people on devices, and there's a lot of electricity going through my house.

Speaker A [00:14:49]:

And so I've been going into my little garden patch in the backyard and immediately I feel better, but then I'm like, I can't just hide in the garden patch whenever my kids are home. That's not really being a mom, you know. And one thing, my friend, who I met through the podcast actually, her name is Sarah. Hi, Sarah. Thanks for, sharing this knowledge with me. When she's doing the grounding challenge as well. And she shared with me, that you can ground yourself by just like touching a metal pole in your like a pipe in your house. But then she discovered that just like touching the tap in your bathroom, can help ground you.

Speaker A [00:15:32]:

So now I'm making it an active, like, part of my day whenever I go to the bathroom. I'm gonna touch the tab anyways to turn it on, but I I like hold the faucet for a few seconds, like, up to a minute. It's like part of my meditative practice now. It's like part of my daily rituals, like stopping. It's also mindfulness, right? Like you're stopping, you're engaging with this tap. I prefer doing it with a tree, absolutely. But if you are stuck inside, so you have a newborn baby or whatever, you can't. You're on a tight work schedule, whatever it is.

Speaker A [00:16:05]:

Take a moment, feel something that's connected into the Earth, and that will help you. It might not be the same as like going outside and watching the clouds for a bit. But, it's a moment of mindfulness, And it's also a moment of grounding yourself. And so it's super important. Anyways, I I was not gonna talk about grounding much on this episode, But I did wanna touch on it. There's so much I've learned. It's wild. I did wanna go back to the forest thing, so I'm reading a book.

Speaker A [00:16:39]:

So there's 2 books I'm reading right now. Well, actually, I'm reading like 6 books, who am I kidding? But the other book, I gotta talk about coughs. I'm gonna cross my fingers, so as soon as I'm done talking about this, I'm gonna talk about coughs. The heartbeat of trees, that's the book I'm reading it and I'm really enjoying it. I'm only, I think, 6 chapters in. It's by Peter Wolleben. Wolleben, w o h l l e b e n. He also wrote the book of the Hidden Life of Trees.

Speaker A [00:17:09]:

It is fascinating. But one of the chapters was talking about, our 6th sense and our 7th sense, our body awareness, and I'm wondering for other Afenantastic people out there, if they have a heightened body sense, because of our lack of ability to visualize. I don't know. So I am having this wild experience with Reiki where I am really feeling the body sensations a ton. And it's cool and it's awesome and I love it, but it can be scary at times. I This is before I had my Reiki. I went to a house that was for sale and I went inside. And as I was going down to the basement, I felt like my my chest was like I had pressure in my chest and I was like having an asthma attack, I couldn't breathe.

Speaker A [00:18:02]:

I'm even getting like tight chested talking about it right now. And, that's what I'm feeling. I'm feeling really, I'm very hyper aware of my body sensations. Anyways, this chapter talks about this. And it talks about how the best thing you can do for your intuition, to open up your intuition, your 6th sense, your inner guidance system. To feel aligned, you know, all the things I was just talking about with the grounding stuff. I swear like the books come into your life when you're supposed to read them. This is why I read like multiple books at a time.

Speaker A [00:18:39]:

I get information that I'm supposed to read like right as I'm supposed to read it. I'm reading this thing and I'm like, I've stopped walking through the forest, like my long walk through the forest because it's too dark. And in this book, I like literally the day after my 1st walk through the forest where I walk the shorter route, because it was lit up. This book starts talking about how the best thing you can do is walk through a forest at night, when there's no light. So I'm like, this is morning, same thing. Right? Walking through the forest during, like, dark. Because it like no headphones, no cell phone. I bring my cell phone in case you know, like something happens, but I take my headphones out and this is my new practice.

Speaker A [00:19:28]:

It talks about how we're so scared, right? We're so scared that we're gonna get attacked by a coyote or a bear or wolf, whatever. But for them, we're not prey, right? They don't want to eat us. They wanna eat the rabbit or the squirrel or whatever. They're not looking at us, they're just scared of us. Right? They're gonna try to hide away from us. So we're not we shouldn't really be worried about that, but we are. I'm more worried about like someone jumping out and like killing me, which I'm more, I'm more scared about people than I am about animals. And that says a lot about me.

Speaker A [00:20:09]:

I don't know. That I might need to bring up in therapy, but, like, if I'm in a parking garage, I'm worse here in a parking garage than I am in the middle of the forest at nighttime. So I don't know. So I start reading this book and I'm like, that's it. I need to start walking through the forest at night hour in the morning. And I have been doing it for the last few days. It hasn't been a long experience, but I wanted to share it with you in case you're, like, in the same boat as me and you have a forest by your house, like, what are the odds of that? And you're scared to walk. It it really truly does open up your intuition and it develops you in such a magical way.

Speaker A [00:20:51]:

Because you have to be aware of all of your senses, and you have to have a good like body sense. I'm going through with my dog too, and I'm hyper aware of what my dog is doing. My dog will walk forward and then take a step backwards sometimes when she can sense something. So I always stop there. And then I, like, take a moment. She sniffs forward. I'm, like, looking around, hearing, listening, smelling, whatever. And it's amazing how quickly I'm looking down this path of darkness, pure darkness.

Speaker A [00:21:30]:

It looks like complete black. And within like 4 seconds, I'm seeing so much more. In this book, it talks about, this really has nothing to do with anything, but It talks about how humans have an extra cone in their eye. So we're able to see green whereas other animals aren't. That got me thinking about leaves and how they change color and maybe the trees are communicating with animals. Like hey, by the way, it's getting the weather's changing, or we're changing the color of our leaves so you can see us at night because the sun goes down. And when the light goes away, green is the hardest thing to see. And I know this from walking through the forest at night, you can't the green just turns to black, But red and yellow, you can see when it's dark, it comes through quicker.

Speaker A [00:22:22]:

So, like, I think about the trees and how they kind of work with us to tell us stuff and tell animals stuff and and how we kind of just ignore all of that. Anyways, I'm only a few chapters into this book and it's really making me like, woah. That's interesting. This is cool. And it's not a spiritual book. It's not a science book. It's like a nature is fucking awesome book, and I love that. And it kinda brings both sides together, which I also love.

Speaker A [00:22:53]:

I feel like that is part of my purpose in life is, like, not ignoring science, But like understanding that they're connected, science and spirituality, it's not 1 or the other. It's together, it's learning and growing through both practices that, we're gonna figure this out, or at least learn together. Okay. I was just talking about I don't even know what were we talking about? So I did wanna talk about how things can crack you open in life. So I don't I think I mentioned so this is really hard for me because I just recorded an entire episode where I talked about all of these things. Now I'm like, I don't wanna repeat myself and I get into a zone. And when I start talking really quickly, I don't remember what I had just said. It just kinda flows out of me and I don't really know where it's gonna go.

Speaker A [00:23:56]:

So because I just recorded an hour long podcast that I'm kinda just throwing away now, I'm worried that I'm gonna say the same thing over and over again. We just lost a couple members of our family, my husband's side. But that experience cracked me open further. And if I can look back at the cracks in my life. So if you picture your life as an eggshell, there's points in your life that crack you open, I think the like, think of the chick as your soul being able to be like, this is me. I'm here. I'm this cool fluffy chick. To get there, you kinda have to crack open the layers of your your egg.

Speaker A [00:24:43]:

So I've had I now my egg is so cracked open that I think my chick is coming out. And I don't think that that's like the of life. I think the chicken turns into it, or the chick turns into a chicken and then starts laying eggs like it's a cycle, right? Just like life. But, my father-in-law passing away, we were very close and he was a spiritual man and we connected on that. And he told me before he passed away that he was gonna try to come through for me. And he has been, he's been coming through in my dreams and sharing a lot of knowledge with me. It's been pretty wild, amazing draining too. Just if you go through an experience similar to this, if you have loved ones trying to communicate with you or, I don't know, dreams where you travel and then you wake up, you might feel drained.

Speaker A [00:25:43]:

And I've definitely felt that and I think the best thing for me, I think this is like a very big issue. I think of like Tyler Henry and how he just, like, get so zonked after readings. And I'm like, I I resonate with him so much, because I I look at him, see a show or whatever, and I'm like, that's so me after like a concert or something or a party. I get so tired. And now, this is such a new thing for me, this grounding exercise where I truly connect with nature daily. I make it a conscious effort to do it. I think my energy level has been a lot better. And I think it happened for like, I think I started doing the grounding practice, and it became such a huge part of me and my self care practice, because I knew I was gonna need it through the grieving process.

Speaker A [00:26:45]:

And just the amount of emotions that have been going through my house, the amount of technology with everyone home. Just it was, it's been a lot of the energy, it's been overwhelming and I've had these these grounding practices. And there was a couple days that I didn't do it and I truly did feel completely drained during those days. And I think those were some of the days that I was just like, the most sad. And, and I was also like, being an emotional support system for my husband and kids and that takes a lot of you. Grief is very very tiring. And during when you're the most tired. You don't do the things that you need the most for yourself, you know.

Speaker A [00:27:31]:

Like when you're super depressed, you don't wanna go to the gym, even though you know that moving your body is gonna help your endorphins and and whatnot. You don't do the things because you're too tired. So I did have a couple days there where I was inside mostly, and I and I definitely felt disconnected and just drained. But now that I know the thing that if you hold onto a tap, it can help your energy. I think that going forward, that'll be something I do more often and I definitely have been doing it more, since finding out. Like, I definitely it's this part. And whenever I go into my laundry room too, I always I find one of the so I have like my laundry room is one of the rooms that don't have the walls finished, So there's poles and stuff. I always grab onto one of the copper poles and just hold onto it for about a minute just to to feel grounded.

Speaker A [00:28:26]:

Everything I can do possibly to feel grounded, it helps me feel like I'm not floating away from myself and that I'm not overly energized. I'm not overly It's like I'm electric, you know. I I get so much energy from other people. Some good, some bad. But sometimes it's too much. And when I take too much on, I can't really feel my true self, my true soul. You know, so I have to get back into my body, so I know who I am. I know that my soul is speaking, But it's not some the imprint of someone else's shit on me.

Speaker A [00:29:08]:

I need to release and ground myself, so I can be my most aligned self. Here I go talking more about grounding, even though I plan on doing a full episode on this. So I wanted to talk about dreams. This is probably the thing I missed in the last podcast episode that I just recorded. I didn't talk about this at all. So, I've been having my father in law has been coming to me in my dreams since he died. The first one was super quick. He basically just said that he's okay and he's making up for lost time.

Speaker A [00:29:48]:

So he and he showed me a glimpse of him celebrating with my sister-in-law her 30th birthday. He was too sick to do anything for her 30th or 40th birthday. And so I think he was like going back in time and reliving these moments. And he was showing me moments. So that was the one I remembered. But then I had another dream where he was, like, giving me, like, tasks to do and stuff that I needed to talk about and whatever. But he was showing me the effects I can have, and I don't wanna get into this. I don't wanna share the whole dream, but I won't because it's so complicated.

Speaker A [00:30:22]:

I was just talking to a friend about this. I find this is so fascinating. Dreams are only like 2 or 3, 5 minutes max. Like, your actual dream experience is very short. But if you try to explain your dream to someone, the process of explaining it is like usually far longer than the dream actually is. And so some of these dreams that I've had since he passed. They're so multi layered. If I were to talk about it, it would be a 4 hour podcast, but the dream was probably only 5 minutes.

Speaker A [00:30:56]:

And that doesn't make sense to our human minds, but it makes sense in the dream world. Right? And so when I try to explain, like, meditation or the things that the downloads that come into my mind, it doesn't really make sense to like a normal day to day life, but it does make sense in kind of this astral worlds, you know. So one of the dreams, he was sharing this this basically mission that I was supposed to do. And he was showing me the ripple effects of the actions. And he was saying like you can, I mean, I'm not gonna get into this? This is like so personal, so I'm not gonna go I'm not gonna share his personal stuff. I don't wanna get into that. But he was showing me, this this thing that I can do and how it will impact all these different people. And it was spider web.

Speaker A [00:31:56]:

Basically, he was showing me the the ripple each each strand that it was this one thing that is gonna impact this, it's gonna impact the criminal justice system, it's gonna impact the medical system, it's gonna impact this, it's gonna impact all of these things. It's this spider web. And he took me through like like Scrooge. And I've had dreams like this before, I've talked about it before, the ripple effect podcast episode. I had a dream where, I gave a girl a gemstone which happened in real life, but then I was able to experience the ripple effect of that action in my dream. It was amazing. And I've had a shared death experience, shared life experience, or shared, yeah, shared life review in a dream as well. So I've had these wild dream experiences, and there's no way that, like, you can experience that all in 5 minutes.

Speaker A [00:32:54]:

Right? You can experience that in 5 minutes. If you think any of your dreams, like any of the dreams that like stick with you, think about just recall try recalling the dream in your head. I know people with having the agent can't do that, But just talk about it, or write it on your phone. The amount of writing it takes to write it all down, it's usually longer than it would take read an actual dream. This is why we need to understand that time and space and all that stuff, when you're dead, when you're dreaming, when you're deep in meditation. Time is completely different. You can gain knowledge without reading a 400 page novel. You can gain the same knowledge through meditation sometimes that you can gain through reading something on the Internet.

Speaker A [00:33:42]:

Sometimes I gain knowledge and then I Google it after I'm like, oh, it was right, you know. Because I've had this download of information into my mind. I think I don't know. I don't know where I was going with that, but basically I wanted to just kinda touch on the fact that this life that we're living, this current life, the where you are in the present moment is is like 1 dimension. Right? Three dimensions, I guess. But, when you're in the dreamscape, just think about how many more dimensions there are. Like how you can go from one place to another in an instant. You know, you can choose to fly, you can whatever.

Speaker A [00:34:19]:

This is like what I'm getting is, that's what the afterlife is like. You know, like you can go here, you go there. You can be in multiple places at once, you can learn multiple things at the same time. It's multilayered, multidimensional. Time is not in existence. Yeah. It's wild. Another thing that I've been getting, Again, I didn't wanna get into like too many personal details about my father-in-law.

Speaker A [00:34:48]:

Not because I don't feel his complete support now. Like, he's been coming through very strongly through my dreams and also, like, clairaudient audiently. He's been communicating very strongly with me. I've developed that that part of me. It's it's like, it's like a combination of clear knowing and clear audience. It's like a very faint voice I get and like, I can feel what he's doing with his body. I don't know how to explain it. Like He came through to me once and he was, like, slapping his leg laughing, then I could, like, feel that.

Speaker A [00:35:29]:

I don't it's clear knowing, I guess, is what I'm saying. But I have that very, very strongly with him. And he's come through in my dreams with very, very clear, very strong messages. But one thing that he's been sharing in my dreams, and I don't always remember them, but they've been coming through during my day. Is he's been sharing different symbols with me and what they mean and what how I can work with them. And So I had this whole dream about him, and I was going I was in the in the morning and I was having a bit of an asthma attack and I went to get my puffer out, which is a new puffer and it's like a circle. And I I went to open it and immediately, like, flashed back to him sharing this circle symbol with me that was, like, half black, half white. He was half in, half out.

Speaker A [00:36:21]:

And he was explaining to me that he's, like, hasn't fully crossed, and he is he's happy, and, like, things are great, and he's able to fish and he's doing all this heavenly things. It's not like, oh, I'm trapped here. He's like half in half out, but he is still kind of half in this realm to help us. He feels like he needs there's still stuff that he wanted to do to us and help my mother-in-law, help my brother-in-law and my husband. And, Yeah. Like, it's like And then I had another dream, where he showed me another symbol of this wood that was cut, like a trunk of of wood that was cut. And He showed me all the different rings and how that is basically like your spiritual your soul development. And how that you start as like the beginning of the ring, but you're constantly banding your rings out.

Speaker A [00:37:15]:

And that there's different layers to life and to afterlife and to the soul development in general. So you cross over and you can you could be at a different layer of soul development than someone else, but it doesn't mean that you're in a heaven or hell playing. It's like you need to learn the lessons and grow and evolve to develop that extra layer. He was like showing me this with a piece of wood, and he's like, these symbols that reoccur in your life are supposed to remind you of these lessons in life. Right? So I've had other symbols come in. The triangle has been big for me, it's been really in my face lately, and I don't fully remember what it meant in the dream, but I know that it was shown to me and that it has purpose. And that the more I like learn about the triangle, the more it's gonna make sense to me. And then I was at my friend's house on Saturday, and I was doing a tarot reading for her.

Speaker A [00:38:11]:

Actually, it was an oracle reading. And during the reading, I was like, look at all these circles. There's so many circles here. The circles, I know what the circles mean, like, circles. These circles, there's so many circles. And I was like, I was like, oh my god. I had a dream where I was told about these circles and I was flashed to the half in half out thing, but then I was flash to the tree trunk, that's a circle. How it's like an eternal circle is like this image that keeps going around and around and then those flash to the globe.

Speaker A [00:38:45]:

Like, our earth is a circle if you look at it, you know, it's a globe, obviously. But if you look at this perfect circle, and circle just represents like it keeps going and going and going. A wheel is a circle. Like, there's so many circles in our life. And, anyways, my dreams, a lot of symbol stuff, it's been happening. And I wanted to talk about symbols too. There has been some new research with Aphantasia and I I'm gonna talk about this without actually reading the article that they talked about it, so please know there's no science behind this. This is just me talking about what I gathered from the quick snippet I did read, which was basically just the description.

Speaker A [00:39:33]:

But I wanna explain what I have, because I think me having this is more important than some article, right? So If you've ever seen the Aphantasia, visual, like explaining what appendasia is. It's usually like a picture of an apple that's fully colored, than a picture of an apple that's more blurry than one that's just an outline, then there's like black, or like maybe there's 5 squares, but it's like basically your visual spectrum, right. And then there's people with hyperventilation who can actually visualize, like movies almost, instead of just like still imagery. Which I feel like is fairly normal actually, the more I've learned about this stuff. Anyways, This article was saying that there's a different type of aphantasia, where, that last panel isn't black. It is more like shapes and stuff. So this is really interesting to me because I've been getting like geometric patterns that have been coming up in meditation. And through different like activities and experiments I've done on myself, I've been able to get some geometric shapes.

Speaker A [00:40:46]:

But I cannot pull them up myself. I cannot be like, show me a hexagon. Show me a stop sign. I can't do that. I can't, like, think of something and have it come up. But I've had a meditation where I've gotten like a Mandela that comes up and, like, there's these shapes that are going in the background. Or like, almost like a kaleidoscope. During a meditation, I get like some sort of imagery.

Speaker A [00:41:12]:

I do. It's it's not all the time, and it's fate. It's not like super bright. You have to, like, super be focused on your eyelids, which is something that I've been practicing, describing what's behind my eyelids. Such a silly it sounds so silly, but the more you do this, the more you realize that your eyelids are are not always the same. And so maybe there is some visual imagery in there that you don't even know exists because you're not really paying attention to what is there. So I've been doing a lot of work with that. But this made me think.

Speaker A [00:41:46]:

So is there 2 parts of your brain? Is there a part of obviously, there's many parts of your brain. But is there a part of your brain that can bring up memories? Is that what's disconnected for people with Aphantasia, the ability to bring them up, like recall, see things in our mind. And then is there a different part of your brain that's able to see things in your mind that isn't recall. And that would be like the geometric shapes. That would be like me randomly seeing a balloon, when I was doing my meditation practice, like maybe that that like that that's like clairvoyance. Or maybe there's something completely different there too. Maybe there's another part of your brain that gives the ability to be clairvoyant. I don't know.

Speaker A [00:42:34]:

You tell me what you think. Do you ever see patterns? When you're in, I think it comes And I have, I think, a couple podcast listeners have wrote in about visual experiences, they've had through deep meditation practices or coming out of the dream state where they see patterns coming out of the dream state. So if you have an experience like that, please let me know. I'd love to hear about it. I'm trying to track all my emails so I can like do some sort of research project one day when I get there. But if you have any sort of experience with this, please let me know. I'd love to hear from you. But I think the pattern thing is not something that you would just like close your eyes and then a pattern just usually appears.

Speaker A [00:43:19]:

It's usually for me, And again, this doesn't happen very often for me. It would be when I'm in there's a term for it, hypno whatever. I can never say it, so I'm gonna try. But I had a podcast listener share this with me, and not now I know that it's something I should talk about, but hypno god no. Genuclear? I can't say it. I don't know. I needed the word in front of me and I don't have it in front of me and I can't putting it in my head, because I have aphantasia. But basically, when you're in that kinda like sleepy dee y zone, when your eyes are closed, there's no TV on in the background, you're just kinda like laying there with your eyes closed.

Speaker A [00:44:00]:

You're about to fall asleep, sometimes something will come in. And what comes in during that time? It's usually involuntary. And for me, it's been usually shapes or patterns. So I'm just curious if you've had that, if anyone's had that. Yeah. I had a theory the other day that came into my mind, and then there's no science and no backing behind this. It was literally just a theory that came into my mind. Because oh my gosh.

Speaker A [00:44:32]:

Part of my, like, my spiritual development recently has been, kinda learning more about dark entities and dark souls, and, just helping helping souls that haven't fully realize their potential and moving more light into dark, basically. And oh my gosh, where was I gonna go with this? Dark energy. I didn't write it down because this is coming out of nowhere. Oh, man, it's gone. It's gone. Dark souls. That was something big for me. It's gone though, it's totally gone I was gonna say so I guess it's not important or, or it is and I'll come comment in another in another episode.

Speaker A [00:45:33]:

Oh, hate when I lose stuff like that. I am stopping this episode because I lost my flow, and I was at 45 minutes already. And my headphones died, so now I'm recording this just through my phone so I sound different. But I just wanna say thank you for listening. I'm gonna try to get this podcast up up and maybe record something else. I have to listen back because I don't remember what I said in this episode at all, and I feel like there's a lot of information that I did not provide. But here are some things that have been coming through for me. And if you are, like, in a space where you're, like, confused and you don't really know, and you want them to talk about it with or whatever.

Speaker A [00:46:20]:

If you because I feel like part of me is like, I'm supposed to bring people together to talk about similar things. I don't know where it's gonna lead, but fire me an email if you're interested in anything I've been talking about. Dark souls. This is what I was gonna get into about helping souls on this side and on the other side, kinda realize their potential and move to the space that they're supposed to be. I think that's part of my purpose. If you feel in a similar head space to that, Please send me an email, rofolcreative@gmail.com or any of this stuff on this episode resonated with you. I have so much more to say. I will try to get more episodes up this week, but, please email me.

Speaker A [00:47:08]:

And I know not all this stuff is gonna get through to you. What I've realized is there's so many layers to spiritual development and ascension and whatever. I every week, I think, oh my gosh, I know so much. I've learned so much. And then a week goes by, I'm like I'm like, holy crap, I know so much more. And I think that's the point of life and after life. I think that we're supposed to constantly keep growing and then we get thrown into another life, and we had got amnesia from our past life. But this soul progression is still kinda growing throughout our multi multiple lives.

Speaker A [00:47:47]:

And, something will resonate in this episode, but not all things. It all depends on where you are in your development. And I encourage people to play, like, Russian roulette, not Russian roulette. Like, just, like, play shuffle podcast. You know? Like, listen to a random podcast because you'll get some random information. You know? Sometimes I listen to 5 minutes of a podcast because I know I got the information I was supposed to need. And maybe that's you here. Maybe not.

Speaker A [00:48:17]:

Maybe I'm just rambling some more, and I was really coming on to say goodbye. I was. So I'm gonna say goodbye, but, please feel free to, drop me an email or write a review or, hey, donate to the podcast. I would love that. No pressure, but It is so greatly appreciated. And, yeah, I love hearing from you guys. And stay tuned so for some really awesome meditation tracks that I'm gonna post to the website as soon as I can hyperfocus my way into them. And if you are on my grounding challenge, please, whatever questions I asked, you can answer them yourself, but I'm going to get a post questionnaire up very soon.

Speaker A [00:49:04]:

So just bear with me. Just been kinda crazy over here. So, yeah, that's it for now. Have a wonderful, amazing, joy filled, love filled, energized day. Oh, you know what? I wanted to talk about 1 more thing. I wanted to talk. Did I tell you about the cough? About how I I've had this cough for, like, 2 years. And my friend literally just told me I was over there on Friday, and she said because I was doing an oracle.

Speaker A [00:49:39]:

Maybe I did say this. I don't remember. I was doing an oracle reading on her, and I started coughing. And she was like, whenever you cough, it's like spirit coming through, like, validating. And I was like, what? And then I, like, had these flashes to all these times. I'm recording something and I'm coughing. I'm like apologizing, but it's really just validation, I think, from spirit. Because it's like this cough came right as I entered this spiritual kinda develop like, I really, really leaped into my virtual development, and I had this cough and it wouldn't go away.

Speaker A [00:50:12]:

And I've had these, like, physical experiences. You know, it's all kinda connecting now. These physical experiences I've had. And coughing is one of them. I always just blame COVID for it, but I think it was, like, part of part of my, journey. Anyways, if you have a random tic like a cough or a hiccup or a chill or, you know, twitch, and you're like, what? Or a ringing in your ear or something. You know? Whatever it is. Don't just, like, think, oh, that's just whatever.

Speaker A [00:50:46]:

Lean into it and see what it is. See realize, like, Listen to what you were talking about in that moment or, what were you thinking about? It's like when you see the angel numbers, when you see 1111 or whatever. Sometimes it means something. Sometimes it means nothing. Sometimes you're thinking about someone that you loved in that moment, and that's what that is. It's like them saying hi. Sometimes it's just angels being like, hey. You're loved.

Speaker A [00:51:11]:

You know? It is really what you make of it. But, For me, the coughing while I'm in the middle of a tangent, usually a validation that what I'm saying is accurate, true, or or I have, like, an abundance of energy flowing through me, and I need to grab myself a bit more. So I'm just kinda learning what my body body is saying. And now I'm really gonna go. I promise. This is the last time I'm gonna say goodbye. I hope your day is wonderful. Go ground yourself.

Speaker A [00:51:39]:

Put your feet in the in the ground or go grab a pole and ground yourself. Have a great day.